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15 Sep 2007 04:44:29 PM |
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On the news they say...(Race and not the horse kind) |
6 black students beat up 1 white student, now the country is up in
arms because the black students were charged with attempted murder.
For me, this is a trigger. I have posted before that I quit high
school because I was continually robbed, harassed, harangued, and
punched by groups of black 'students'. I was fresh out of catholic
school, and had no friends, and groups of black students culled me
from the herd and attacked my soft white underbelly.
When I hear this stuff on the news, my heart starts pounding. I'm
gonna have a heart attack someday reading/watching/thinking about this
crap.
So does this make me a racist? Am I damned to Hell because I can't
forget? If so, why should I bother caring about anyone, red green or
Mauve?
And who am I gonna work this out with? I used to go to al-anon
meetings in Westport, and invariably, someone would stand up (usually
a white girl) and say we need to do more to help the underprivileged
who live amongst 'us'. The 'us' she was talking about were town
people, where the average income is over 150 grand a year (You can
imagine what most of them earn), there might be 4 black families in
town, and I am from the town NEXT to westport, where we worked for the
Westport people and I grew up poor, remained poor, with simple parents
who fought over paying the lumber company their bills rather than feed
the 5 kids. I used to have a paper route and I'd fantasize while I
was delivering papers that someday, I would gather the family in the
living room, and say to my carpenter father, "Dad, here is a gift for
you. I have saved 4 thousand dollars, and I here it is, and you can
go pay off Hatch & Bailey, and now we can all be happy." And the
fantasy was like on "A Christmas Story", with Ralphie. What a great
feeling.
I think I got up to like 2$ 35 Cents before I couldn't go any higher.
And I'd be out surveying in a 'bad' part of town, and guys would walk
by me and say in disgust, "Must be nice to get 35$ an hour". 1/2 that
and they'd have been closer.
It's my freakin fault that some ***** actually thought it was OK to
sell people? Why don't they pick the biggest white guy they can find
and kick his *****, instead of my scrawny butt. In school, My head was
larger than my waist for F&^ks sake, I was 5 foot 2.
But the important thing is :I ain't got no more money than you, you
*****!
The only one I respected was the one out of the pack of ten who
accosted me and Gerry on a Sunday, coming from the theatre where we
saw "Bullit". They did the usual, "let me hold a quarter....All I
find I keep?" and one of them found a nickel. They all walked away,
sparing my life, and the leader said, "Hang on" and came up to me with
the nickel and gave it back to me, and they went their merry way.
Oh, my heart is racing. So to speak.
Frett
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: On the news they say...(Race and not the horse kind) |
16 Sep 2007 09:08:14 PM |
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wrote:
6 black students beat up 1 white student, now the country is up in
arms because the black students were charged with attempted murder.
It's not that up in arms but the MSM must be doing its thing.
For me, this is a trigger.
When I hear this stuff on the news, my heart starts pounding. I'm
gonna have a heart attack someday reading/watching/thinking about this
crap.
I believe it. I am thankful almost daily that the hoodlums in
my schools weren't black.
So does this make me a racist?
No.
And who am I gonna work this out with? I used to go to al-anon
meetings in Westport, and invariably, someone would stand up (usually
a white girl) and say we need to do more to help the underprivileged
who live amongst 'us'.
What garbage. I rarely hear that in NYC. Also it's an Outside
Issue -- in meetings I've been in it would get discussed at the
business meetings, and quite likely put into the opening statement.
This is extremely distressing bc those meetings are one of the
better places to discuss triggers of this sort.
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: On the news they say...(Race and not the horse kind) |
16 Sep 2007 10:10:02 PM |
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On Sep 16, 10:08 pm, Contrarian <adrb...@gmail.com> wrote:
Frettb...@gmail.com wrote:
6 black students beat up 1 white student, now the country is up in
arms because the black students were charged with attempted murder.
It's not that up in arms but the MSM must be doing its thing.
For me, this is a trigger.
When I hear this stuff on the news, my heart starts pounding. I'm
gonna have a heart attack someday reading/watching/thinking about this
crap.
I believe it. I am thankful almost daily that the hoodlums in
my schools weren't black.
So does this make me a racist?
No.
And who am I gonna work this out with? I used to go to al-anon
meetings in Westport, and invariably, someone would stand up (usually
a white girl) and say we need to do more to help the underprivileged
who live amongst 'us'.
What garbage. I rarely hear that in NYC. Also it's an Outside
Issue -- in meetings I've been in it would get discussed at the
business meetings
I think it was, now that you mention it...
It was still way too utopian for me.
, and quite likely put into the opening statement.
This is extremely distressing bc those meetings are one of the
better places to discuss triggers of this sort.
Yeah, I haven't been in years. My mother started going a year ago,
unheard of in the past. She reads the affirmation book daily, and
it's the first time she has EVER admitted to being in need of a mood
change occasionally.
Oooo, but she made the big "crosstalk" mistake recently. I had to
tell her the rules, and how to crosstalk while pretending I am not
crosstalking...."Yeah, I heard some good things tonight.....My X was Y
once. I remember I 'Z'ed, and it seemed to work."
frett
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| User: "Contrarian" |
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| Title: Re: On the news they say...(Race and not the horse kind) |
16 Sep 2007 11:45:44 PM |
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wrote:
Yeah, I haven't been in years. My mother started going a year ago,
unheard of in the past. She reads the affirmation book daily, and
it's the first time she has EVER admitted to being in need of a mood
change occasionally.
Oooo, but she made the big "crosstalk" mistake recently. I had to
tell her the rules, and how to crosstalk while pretending I am not
crosstalking...."Yeah, I heard some good things tonight.....My X was Y
once. I remember I 'Z'ed, and it seemed to work."
Got lost with the "algebra" (the X Y and Z) but IMO talking
on the same topic or kind of event as a previous speaker isn't
crosstalk, but mentioning the speaker or repeating identifying
details is.
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