Hi to anyone who may actually remember me (seeing as I check in so rarely
these days)!

Hi to anyone who may actually remember me (seeing as I check in so rarely
these days)!

Things here are crazy as usual, but a mixed bag. I personally am doing
pretty well, which is a good thing! My meds are finally adjusted, and on
the right ones after being properly dx with Bipolar II several months ago.
Yeah, I've had some rough times, but slight med tweaks have helped. Now I
just have the occasional bad day, just like everyone else on the planet!
It's a good thing I'm on an even keel though, because:

My job is stressing me out major. It has been for ages, and it's really
getting to me. I want to change, but don't want to go "just anywhere". I
had an interview at a place I liked, but haven't heard back, and am kind of
giving up.

Having *major* problems with my 15 yr old son. He's always been
difficult...problems in school, the like.....this year since the Fall, he's
changed a lot, definitely showing signs of depression. Making some really
poor choices. Caught shoplifting (but they didn't press charges)........was
caught having sex with his girlfriend by her mom (ack! hate to think! at
least they were 'safe', but still.............)............caught up in the
"death" "hate" "destruction" business. It seemed a phase at first, but he's
fallen deeper and deeper, and it's not just a fashion statement anymore!
The other day we found out he'd swallowed a handful of his brother's
Concerta. I called 911 before I realized it had happened 3 days prior, but
while I was on the line, he's in the background shouting "You're lucky I
haven't killed myself", etc. So they sent the cops and an ambulance. he
told the cops he thinks of suicide "a lot", so we were off and spending all
night in psych ED. they didn't admit him, just told us to continue therapy,
and she convinced him to try meds (he'd been totally refusing earlier). So
I am setting him up to see a psychiatrist.

Meanwhile my 11 year old is struggling in school. In contrast, he really
*cares* and wants to better, almost cares too much, and is very sensitive,
and cries when he finds out his grade is not so hot. He is sensitive and
cries very easily. His concentration is decreased and has poor
organization. So besides having a meeting with his teachers coming up, I am
having his MD check and see if perhaps he needs his dose of Concerta
adjusted, as it hasn't changed in well over a year.

My sweetie Tony was on disability for depression and anxiety for a month
back in November/early December. He had meds changed, and is doing *much*
better now. He has gone on a diet with me, and is starting to lose weight,
too. He needs to, as he has some health problems related to being
overweight. Personally, I have lost a considerable amount of weight over
the past 2 years, and the past year alone have lost like 40 pounds or so. I
still have 5-8 to go to be where I want to.

I had a *fantastic* vacation with Tony back in September to a Stargate
convention in Vancouver. I am going without Tony this year (it's in July
this time), meeting my friend there and the weekend after we are going to
another sci-fi convention in London. I had a great time last year. One of
the highlights was a special lunch with my favorite actor, Colin
Cunningham. I'm in his fan club, and 20 of us had a birthday lunch for him,
and he invited us back to his apartment, we got to see the view of the city
from his balcony, etc. It was so awesome! And just last week, this guy
*called my house* to personally thank him for a Christmas present I sent
him. I tell ya, I could've died! I was soooo excited!

Well, that's me in a nutshell!
(((hugs)))

Heather