Used2be <used2be@nowhere.com> wrote:

that's what i'm doing today to get through it.

at 5:00), i won't feel as depressed as i do right now. i already feel
better than i did 3 hours ago, so that's something, right?

it is indeed, I rejoice at hearing that

Used2be wrote:

that's what i'm doing today to get through it.

i'm doing one hour of working on my preschool curriculum for the week
(which is why i'm on the computer right this minute...yes i'm cheating a
bit by typing this post), then an hour of heavy duty cleaning (30 minutes
per room just because i'm that picky) and one hour just for me (reading a
romance book).

then i repeat it all.

right now i'm back where i started 3 hours ago. but it's working. i'm
getting through this day one hour at a time, and i'm accomplishing
something as well. maybe when the day is over (i started at 8:00 and i
plan to stop at 5:00), i won't feel as depressed as i do right now. i
already feel better than i did 3 hours ago, so that's something, right?

~u2b (on a schedule)

That's the kind of thing that works for me, too, often enough. Oddly
enough, it was my Dad who taught me how to do it when he explained
something he noticed in his job as a prison guard. In prison, there is (or
was) the concept of doing good time vs. doing hard time. 'Good' time
seemed to be part of a decision an inmate made to just get through it and
keep busy. 'Hard' time was when a guy made every minute an opportunity for
even more bad stuff happening or more discomfort. My Dad said that the
guys who chose to do 'good' time kind of had the attitude that you could
do the time or the time would do you. One way or the other, you do your
time, hour by hour, day by day. On a day when I feel stuck with my
feelings, or whatever, I still feel like I can make it 'good' time. I hope
your choice of 'good' hours today is still working for ya.

i finished up this hour's worth of preschool stuff a little early (the rest
of the stuff i'll have to wait and do downstairs and/or up at the school
tomorrow morning), so here i am on ASD for a few minutes. next hour i'm off
to spend some time reading a silly romance novel. i like them because they
are such a good escape. and they always have happy endings. i love happy
endings.

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On Mon, 21 Feb 2005 17:11:28 GMT, "Used2be" <used2be@nowhere.com>
wrote:

that's what i'm doing today to get through it.

i'm doing one hour of working on my preschool curriculum for the week
(which
is why i'm on the computer right this minute...yes i'm cheating a bit by
typing this post), then an hour of heavy duty cleaning (30 minutes per
room
just because i'm that picky) and one hour just for me (reading a romance
book).

then i repeat it all.

right now i'm back where i started 3 hours ago. but it's working. i'm
getting through this day one hour at a time, and i'm accomplishing
something
as well. maybe when the day is over (i started at 8:00 and i plan to stop
at 5:00), i won't feel as depressed as i do right now. i already feel
better than i did 3 hours ago, so that's something, right?

You bet it is. That's the way I have to do it quite often. But I take
just 15 minutes at a time. I will put a timer on for 15 minutes and do
the chore at hand then take a break. Buy the end of 4 hours or so, I
have at least accomplished something and the dreaded anxiety that
comes with doing nothing has vanished. Good on you!

~u2b (on a schedule)