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"Anonymous" |
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19 Oct 2003 02:42:48 PM |
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One of my spells again. |
The reason I beat up on myself is, well, dont most of us here beat
up on themselves. Once you get going, it's a hard habit to break. I
for one, can't think of a person more deserving. Harsh, distorted
thinking, I know, but hey, who here hasn't been where I'm at right
now, huh?
The reason I do it is because of low self-esteem, life choices,
regrets, a pattern of dishonesty in relating to people, etc. I brought
it on myself and I know that I can change, but I'm the one who has
to take the first step right?
So here I am. I dont drink, I dont use drugs, I dont even smoke
tobacco. So what's my only vice? Lying, trying to appear as
someone I'm not (posting anonymously seems more authentic
than posting under my regular nick), and feeling guilty as hell
about all of it. I feel powerless to stop, though. I feel like if people
ever knew the REAL me, they wouldnt like me and it would drive
me to despair. No, you say? Well, thus far, I'm not willing to take
that chance.
I'm a mess.
-=-
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| User: "Luna" |
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| Title: Re: One of my spells again. |
19 Oct 2003 03:03:27 PM |
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Anonymous wrote:
The reason I beat up on myself is, well, dont most of us here beat
up on themselves. Once you get going, it's a hard habit to break. I
for one, can't think of a person more deserving. Harsh, distorted
thinking, I know, but hey, who here hasn't been where I'm at right
now, huh?
The reason I do it is because of low self-esteem, life choices,
regrets, a pattern of dishonesty in relating to people, etc. I
brought it on myself and I know that I can change, but I'm the one
who has to take the first step right?
Yes.
Lying is lazy, and it's easy. It also makes you feel like ***** about
yourself. So, yeah, it's up to you - which has the biggest payoff? cuz
that's what you'll continue to do.
Jean
So here I am. I dont drink, I dont use drugs, I dont even smoke
tobacco. So what's my only vice? Lying, trying to appear as
someone I'm not (posting anonymously seems more authentic
than posting under my regular nick), and feeling guilty as hell
about all of it. I feel powerless to stop, though. I feel like if
people ever knew the REAL me, they wouldnt like me and it would drive
me to despair. No, you say? Well, thus far, I'm not willing to take
that chance.
I'm a mess.
-=-
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| User: "Linda" |
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| Title: Re: One of my spells again. |
19 Oct 2003 03:49:55 PM |
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I don't understand liars. What could be so terrible about you that you have
to hide it so people won't find out?
I would much rather deal with the naked truth than deception. I don't care
how much the truth hurts, honesty is the best policy.
And guess what? No matter who you are or what you do, some people will like
you, and some people won't.
Just ask me. Just this weekend, somebody I truly thought was my friend
doesnt' want to hang out anymore. She only wants to be work friends.
Somebody else who I knew online turned out to be a major disappointment in
real life. She was such a snob, and she has low self esteem, so says nasty
things to build herself up. It hurts, this reality thing. But I'd rather
have truth than lies anyday. It's so hard to trust people to begin with.
Don't you want anybody to trust you?
On 19 Oct 2003 19:42:48 -0000, Anonymous <BigappleRemailer@Optonline.Net>
wrote:
The reason I beat up on myself is, well, dont most of us here beat up on
themselves. Once you get going, it's a hard habit to break. I for one,
can't think of a person more deserving. Harsh, distorted thinking, I
know, but hey, who here hasn't been where I'm at right now, huh?
The reason I do it is because of low self-esteem, life choices, regrets,
a pattern of dishonesty in relating to people, etc. I brought it on
myself and I know that I can change, but I'm the one who has to take the
first step right?
So here I am. I dont drink, I dont use drugs, I dont even smoke tobacco.
So what's my only vice? Lying, trying to appear as someone I'm not
(posting anonymously seems more authentic than posting under my regular
nick), and feeling guilty as hell about all of it. I feel powerless to
stop, though. I feel like if people ever knew the REAL me, they wouldnt
like me and it would drive me to despair. No, you say? Well, thus far,
I'm not willing to take that chance.
I'm a mess.
-=-
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| User: "Tracy Barber" |
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| Title: Re: One of my spells again. |
19 Oct 2003 06:17:16 PM |
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On Sun, 19 Oct 2003 14:49:55 -0600, Linda
<athena2552@diespammer.yahoo.com> wrote:
I don't understand liars. What could be so terrible about you that you have
to hide it so people won't find out?
I brought this up a few days ago. Be careful where you go with it
because some people here may attempt at reaming you. some people
thought I was attacking their "very core" and it really had nothing to
do with them.
Go figure...
I would much rather deal with the naked truth than deception. I don't care
how much the truth hurts, honesty is the best policy.
To me, I believe the same way. Some people have either been hurt so
much -or- are not willing to let go of the "game". Some people only
know how to play games. Also, sometimes they aren't as honest as we
would like them to be. We have to lower our expectations on some
people.
Sometimes, even without the above reasons, some people believe they
are being as honest as they can and don't know that they are not.
-OR- aren't willing to go further.
And guess what? No matter who you are or what you do, some people will like
you, and some people won't.
That's very true. Trying to kiss ***** while saving face doesn't work.
I'd rather save ***** than kiss *****. But that's me. Trying to save
face makes my "saving *****" tossed to the wind. People don't like me
for it at times. That's just too bad.
Sometimes, I may not seem as empathetic as they'd like. I know what I
do and why I do it most times.
Just ask me. Just this weekend, somebody I truly thought was my friend
doesnt' want to hang out anymore. She only wants to be work friends.
Somebody else who I knew online turned out to be a major disappointment in
real life. She was such a snob, and she has low self esteem, so says nasty
things to build herself up. It hurts, this reality thing. But I'd rather
have truth than lies anyday. It's so hard to trust people to begin with.
This is true. And, when others toss their ***** our way we tend to
back off and not trust for a while.
Don't you want anybody to trust you?
Let's hope this person does, eh?
On 19 Oct 2003 19:42:48 -0000, Anonymous <BigappleRemailer@Optonline.Net>
wrote:
The reason I beat up on myself is, well, dont most of us here beat up on
themselves. Once you get going, it's a hard habit to break. I for one,
can't think of a person more deserving. Harsh, distorted thinking, I
know, but hey, who here hasn't been where I'm at right now, huh?
The reason I do it is because of low self-esteem, life choices, regrets,
a pattern of dishonesty in relating to people, etc. I brought it on
myself and I know that I can change, but I'm the one who has to take the
first step right?
So here I am. I dont drink, I dont use drugs, I dont even smoke tobacco.
So what's my only vice? Lying, trying to appear as someone I'm not
(posting anonymously seems more authentic than posting under my regular
nick), and feeling guilty as hell about all of it. I feel powerless to
stop, though. I feel like if people ever knew the REAL me, they wouldnt
like me and it would drive me to despair. No, you say? Well, thus far,
I'm not willing to take that chance.
I'm a mess.
-=-
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| User: "Tracy Barber" |
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| Title: Re: One of my spells again. |
19 Oct 2003 06:07:10 PM |
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On 19 Oct 2003 19:42:48 -0000, Anonymous
<BigappleRemailer@Optonline.Net> wrote:
The reason I beat up on myself is, well, dont most of us here beat
up on themselves. Once you get going, it's a hard habit to break. I
for one, can't think of a person more deserving. Harsh, distorted
thinking, I know, but hey, who here hasn't been where I'm at right
now, huh?
The reason I do it is because of low self-esteem, life choices,
regrets, a pattern of dishonesty in relating to people, etc. I brought
it on myself and I know that I can change, but I'm the one who has
to take the first step right?
So here I am. I dont drink, I dont use drugs, I dont even smoke
tobacco. So what's my only vice? Lying, trying to appear as
someone I'm not (posting anonymously seems more authentic
than posting under my regular nick), and feeling guilty as hell
about all of it. I feel powerless to stop, though. I feel like if people
ever knew the REAL me, they wouldnt like me and it would drive
me to despair. No, you say? Well, thus far, I'm not willing to take
that chance.
How about taking a chance and letting us decide? :^)
Tracy Barber
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