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Sociology > Depression |
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"Camel1982" |
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16 Jul 2003 09:16:41 PM |
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Re: Don't know what to do |
hi mate, im 21 and i feel the exact same way. You have put down in words
exactly how i feel in my head, which is weird. I have the same things you
have (car g/f etc) and i feel like this. i want to breakdown but i cant, my
head feels like goo. I usually think being 21 and feeling like this since i
was 19 and being a lad makes me pathetic. lads my age dont feel like this,
apparently we do. i constantly think im just being dramatic and maybe *I*
should just grow the f**k up too. its nasty ***** aint it. i dunno how im
gonna get over this. One day im good, next i want to throw myself off a
cliff. Why my g/f stays with me i have NO IDEA. When i have a bad day and i
get depressed and weird, i talk to her like ***** and i hate myself for it,
but she's still there for me. Im one luck lad.
Camel.
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| User: "Camel1982" |
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| Title: Re: Don't know what to do |
16 Jul 2003 09:30:19 PM |
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also good to mention im not on pills anymore, and i havn't been for 2
months. i started to feel better, NEEDED to work for money to pay bills i
cant cover so i couldnt stay on incapacity benefit. Since i wasn't on
benefit i couldn't get the pills free, and to buy them is too pricey. Money
really is that tight, i make enought to just cover my bills. If i buy one
thing extra it puts me in more debt. Tricky. I do feel like im cracking up
again tho. Its ironic, i felt crazy for so long, i've had a 2 month holiday,
i actually feel more normal being screwed up in the head!
if that makes sense.
Camel1982 wrote in message ...
hi mate, im 21 and i feel the exact same way. You have put down in words
exactly how i feel in my head, which is weird. I have the same things you
have (car g/f etc) and i feel like this. i want to breakdown but i cant, my
head feels like goo. I usually think being 21 and feeling like this since i
was 19 and being a lad makes me pathetic. lads my age dont feel like this,
apparently we do. i constantly think im just being dramatic and maybe *I*
should just grow the f**k up too. its nasty ***** aint it. i dunno how im
gonna get over this. One day im good, next i want to throw myself off a
cliff. Why my g/f stays with me i have NO IDEA. When i have a bad day and i
get depressed and weird, i talk to her like ***** and i hate myself for it,
but she's still there for me. Im one luck lad.
Camel.
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| User: "James" |
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| Title: Re: Don't know what to do |
17 Jul 2003 12:59:30 AM |
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Camel.
My girlfriend is wonderful, but she doesn't understand my depression.
She is definitely not a depressed person, I always yell at her and
accuse her of not understanding me, she doesn't know what to do 50% of
the time.
Last year when I went onto medication (without telling her) she was
there and supported me while I was coming off. I had to deal with the
massive witdhdrawal symptoms. She stood by my side and took
everything. I would Yell and scream at her and she would stay on the
phone and listen, she would be calm and when i was finished doing this
all she said was ' i love you ' She is always there for me, she
listens and i feel guilty when im an *****.
Last week I had a breakdown, where i jumped out of my car and ran
across a busy road and collapsed onto the floor. The next day she
turned up to my house, took a day of university to be with me.
I feel horrible when i break down..and she is there to help me.
On a happier note I went and bought her a huge bunch of flowers today!
and some other assorted goods she likes! I hope she enjoys it all.
Oh camel, don't worry plently of lads (guys/men) are depressed. I cant
help but think..would I be like this if I never took medication?
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