could you maby take a long break and start again where you left off?
or is there a chance you can do the schooling at home?

I don't know if any of you remember, but at the start of this year I
decided to go back to school and do my high-school English at a
Distance Education Centre.

At first, everything was going beautifully. I was receiving A's and
getting through the work on schedule, however over the last couple of
months, I am finding myself falling further and further behind.

The reasons for this are mostly due to the stressors of bringing up an
independent and very strong willed teenager, and also the depression
and anxiety make it difficult to study for weeks on end.

I am considering exiting the programme and giving it all up, however
deep inside I am feeling like an utter failure. My reason in the first
place for getting the pass in English was the hope that I could
perhaps go onto further education. After giving this some thought, I
realise that I could not afford to attend University over here anyway,
even if I could achieve some semblance of normality with my moods.

I also thought, that if I decided to begin further education I could
do it through the Open Learning Institution and I have no need of an
O.P or a pass in high-school English.

I know that I can do the work, however I have just lost the motivation
to continue. :( I didn't really enjoy doing it to tell you the truth,
and it was a means to an end and now that I can't really see an "end"
in sight, I see no reason to continue other than to prove that I can
do it.

So, in a nutshell, these are my thoughts however my feelings are
hitting home pretty hard. I really do feel like I have let myself
down. Rarely do I finish anything that I start. I have had so many
ideas and projects over the years of my depression that have remained
half completed. It makes me feel very sad.

I just don't know. Can you relate and if you can, what would you do?

Thanks,