At work.
sitting and feeling like crying.
It all feels like such a waste of time.
I mean, I work to pay bills so I have a place to live and food to eat.
But I don't care.
I should care. It's important. But I just don't.
It doesn't help that I hurt my back a while ago and the pain refuses
to go away.
So now, I have an 'illness' that has no physical signs and a pain,
that also has no physical signs (except it makes it uncomfortable to
do anything.)
I can't even bend over to tie my damn boots anymore.
I've got an appointment with the pnurse tomorrow... and all I can do
is worry about it because she'll probably crap on me again for not
bringing her a journal. Like it's fucking homework.
Am I an adult? Why should I have to have anxiety about seeing the
person who is supposed to be helping me with my anxiety and
depression?????
So, How was your day?
Mz.R
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| Title: Re: sore and sad |
25 Feb 2004 06:09:53 PM |
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Sorry about your situation, what else can I say? probably you can look
for experiences, etc in the net and have plenty of things to read.
Life is not far for us but the only thing I can tell you is to look at
the things you have... easy to say... sorry I'm no much help.
Today I decided I will go to the doc soon and get some prescription,
probably paxil because it worked good for me many years ago; my
'infatuation' consumes me and need help with that. And I was
thinking, even if I get a girl, probably the depression will come in
other forms; like someone's experience, he thought that depression was
going to go away when he got a gf, but when he did, he made a sad
discovery, the depression was still there.
We must be tough and try to live life day by day, hour by hour, and
sometimes get out of our confort zone to have something different.
God bless
On 25 Feb 2004 13:32:57 -0800, (Mz R.) wrote:
At work.
sitting and feeling like crying.
It all feels like such a waste of time.
I mean, I work to pay bills so I have a place to live and food to eat.
But I don't care.
I should care. It's important. But I just don't.
It doesn't help that I hurt my back a while ago and the pain refuses
to go away.
So now, I have an 'illness' that has no physical signs and a pain,
that also has no physical signs (except it makes it uncomfortable to
do anything.)
I can't even bend over to tie my damn boots anymore.
I've got an appointment with the pnurse tomorrow... and all I can do
is worry about it because she'll probably crap on me again for not
bringing her a journal. Like it's fucking homework.
Am I an adult? Why should I have to have anxiety about seeing the
person who is supposed to be helping me with my anxiety and
depression?????
So, How was your day?
Mz.R
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