end it all before it gets deeper (relationship)? I should and if I had
balls I would. Lord knows the signs are all there. I'm rebound material
all the way for him. I will never measure up to his precious c. *****
him!!! now if I could ever say ***** him to his face. Not just that but his
friends, his cars, and so on and so forth. I know, I know, I'm just a piece
of ***** with goofy kids. Who am I to expect anything better??? I should be
grateful to someone 7 years my younger to show me attention. I should be
kissing his *****, ............wait, I've already come close. i will
never be HER. I will never be worthy of being treated well. I should be
grateful........but I'm not. ***** no. I'm an inconsiderate *****. But at
least I know common curtesies....or maybe I don't. Who knows. I'm fucking
drunk right now.
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| User: "gravity" |
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05 Jun 2006 08:38:23 PM |
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"packrat" <maddienospam@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:z_4hg.1958$o4.18@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net...
end it all before it gets deeper (relationship)? I should and if I had
balls I would. Lord knows the signs are all there. I'm rebound material
all the way for him. I will never measure up to his precious c. *****
him!!! now if I could ever say ***** him to his face. Not just that but
his
friends, his cars, and so on and so forth. I know, I know, I'm just a
piece
of ***** with goofy kids. Who am I to expect anything better??? I should
be
grateful to someone 7 years my younger to show me attention. I should be
kissing his *****, ............wait, I've already come close. i will
never be HER. I will never be worthy of being treated well. I should be
grateful........but I'm not. ***** no. I'm an inconsiderate *****. But
at
least I know common curtesies....or maybe I don't. Who knows. I'm
fucking
drunk right now.
hello Packrat. hope you are well.
Michael
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| User: "mighty mouse" |
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06 Jun 2006 08:04:46 AM |
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"packrat" <maddienospam@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:z_4hg.1958$o4.18@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net...
end it all before it gets deeper (relationship)? I should and if I had
balls I would. Lord knows the signs are all there. I'm rebound material
all the way for him. I will never measure up to his precious c. *****
him!!! now if I could ever say ***** him to his face. Not just that but
his
friends, his cars, and so on and so forth. I know, I know, I'm just a
piece
of ***** with goofy kids. Who am I to expect anything better??? I should
be
grateful to someone 7 years my younger to show me attention. I should be
kissing his *****, ............wait, I've already come close. i will
never be HER. I will never be worthy of being treated well. I should be
grateful........but I'm not. ***** no. I'm an inconsiderate *****. But
at
least I know common curtesies....or maybe I don't. Who knows. I'm
fucking
drunk right now.
You are absolutely entitled to someone who loves you and respects you and
treats you and your family well.
Don't ever let yourself believe you don't. It's just the disease lying to
you.
*hugs*
Kylie
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| User: "packrat" |
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07 Jun 2006 12:53:39 AM |
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You are absolutely entitled to someone who loves you and respects you and
treats you and your family well.
Don't ever let yourself believe you don't. It's just the disease lying to
you.
*hugs*
thanks Kylie. He treats my kids great. He could be a little more
understanding with my son who has some behavioral problems, such as ADHD and
I think possible mild aspbergers. But overall he's good with my kids. As
I said to someone else, he's a nice guy I just think he's too hung up on his
ex to have anything to give to a relationship with he and I.
Kylie
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| User: "Rhiannon" |
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06 Jun 2006 07:02:43 PM |
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"packrat" <maddienospam@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:z_4hg.1958$o4.18@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net...
end it all before it gets deeper (relationship)? I should and if I had
balls I would. Lord knows the signs are all there. I'm rebound material
all the way for him. I will never measure up to his precious c. *****
him!!! now if I could ever say ***** him to his face. Not just that but
his
friends, his cars, and so on and so forth. I know, I know, I'm just a
piece
of ***** with goofy kids. Who am I to expect anything better??? I should
be
grateful to someone 7 years my younger to show me attention. I should be
kissing his *****, ............wait, I've already come close. i will
never be HER. I will never be worthy of being treated well. I should be
grateful........but I'm not. ***** no. I'm an inconsiderate *****. But
at
least I know common curtesies....or maybe I don't. Who knows. I'm
fucking
drunk right now.
I think if you believe this about yourself, so will he.
--
Rhi
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| User: "cal" |
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05 Jun 2006 08:49:13 PM |
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"packrat" <maddienospam@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:z_4hg.1958$o4.18@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net...
end it all before it gets deeper (relationship)? I should and if I had
balls I would. Lord knows the signs are all there. I'm rebound material
all the way for him. I will never measure up to his precious c. *****
him!!! now if I could ever say ***** him to his face. Not just that but
his friends, his cars, and so on and so forth. I know, I know, I'm just a
piece of ***** with goofy kids. Who am I to expect anything better??? I
should be grateful to someone 7 years my younger to show me attention. I
should be kissing his *****, ............wait, I've already come close.
i will never be HER. I will never be worthy of being treated well. I
should be grateful........but I'm not. ***** no. I'm an inconsiderate
*****. But at least I know common curtesies....or maybe I don't. Who
knows. I'm fucking drunk right now.
hm. sounds to me like the only thing you like about this guy is that he's 7
years younger than you, and all that's doing for you is making you feel
inadequate. why wouldn't you be better off without him?
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| User: "packrat" |
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07 Jun 2006 12:39:48 AM |
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"> hm. sounds to me like the only thing you like about this guy is that he's
7
years younger than you, and all that's doing for you is making you feel
inadequate. why wouldn't you be better off without him?
no, actually when we're together I don't feel our age difference except when
around his friends or family as well. The age thing is neither a turn on or
turn off for me, it does feed my insecurity though. There are lots of
things in the relationship that I enjoy. I haven't laughed as much as I
have with him, lots of things. OTOH, there are lots of instances where I
know that he just isn't going to give that I need/want in a relationship.
Some things I thought would straighten out with time, but how much time is
enough? And as someone so wisely told me from this group, we teach people
how to treat us (something to that effect) and now that the patterns are
established, I've set the bar low for myself and have set myself up to be
doormat, grateful for any little thing. Again, not saying he's a bad
person, abusive or anything like that, he's not. He is a nice person, very
nice, just very hung up on himself and not picking up cues that I'm missing
a whole lot in the relationship that I wish he would reciprocate.
*shrug*
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| User: "Alan Harding" |
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06 Jun 2006 05:21:27 PM |
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In message <z_4hg.1958$o4.18@newsread2.news.pas.earthlink.net>, packrat
<maddienospam@yahoo.com> writes
end it all before it gets deeper (relationship)? I should and if I had
balls I would. Lord knows the signs are all there. I'm rebound material
all the way for him. I will never measure up to his precious c. *****
him!!! now if I could ever say ***** him to his face. Not just that but his
friends, his cars, and so on and so forth. I know, I know, I'm just a piece
of ***** with goofy kids. Who am I to expect anything better??? I should be
grateful to someone 7 years my younger to show me attention. I should be
kissing his *****, ............wait, I've already come close. i will
never be HER. I will never be worthy of being treated well. I should be
grateful........but I'm not. ***** no. I'm an inconsiderate *****. But at
least I know common curtesies....or maybe I don't. Who knows. I'm fucking
drunk right now.
Wait till you're sober, and ask yourself again.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "packrat" |
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07 Jun 2006 12:56:37 AM |
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Wait till you're sober, and ask yourself again.
good idea, I wish I would have listened. while all out drunk I called his
cell several times and told him off and broke up. Fortunately or
unfortunately?? He didn't take it seriously. Part of me is glad, a small
part though wishes maybe he would have taken it seriously. I won't go on
indefinitely though.
--
The opinions given above may be mine. They might also
just be what I feel like saying right now, okay?
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| User: "Janithor" |
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06 Jun 2006 01:42:48 AM |
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x-no-archive: yes
packrat wrote:
end it all before it gets deeper (relationship)? I should and if I had
balls I would. Lord knows the signs are all there. I'm rebound material
all the way for him. I will never measure up to his precious c. *****
him!!! now if I could ever say ***** him to his face. Not just that but his
friends, his cars, and so on and so forth. I know, I know, I'm just a piece
of ***** with goofy kids. Who am I to expect anything better??? I should be
grateful to someone 7 years my younger to show me attention. I should be
kissing his *****, ............wait, I've already come close. i will
never be HER. I will never be worthy of being treated well. I should be
grateful........but I'm not. ***** no. I'm an inconsiderate *****. But at
least I know common curtesies....or maybe I don't. Who knows. I'm fucking
drunk right now.
Sounds like it's time to end it. That doesn't mean failure on your
part, the probability that any single person you date is going to be
your soul mate is a bit low. Better to find out now than to keep going.
My neighbor was telling me about her son, he got stood up a month
before the wedding. Imagine if the woman got cold AFTER the wedding,
after a baby, etc...
7 years is a big age gap too. Nothing wrong with that, it just
realistically makes things a little more complicated. Again, I say this
because it's not a reflection on you, but just the nature of the
situation itself. You like to take things these as evidence of your
worthlessness, which they are not.
(Hope tomorrow doesn't hurt too bad, btdt.)
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| User: "packrat" |
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07 Jun 2006 12:50:27 AM |
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....
x-no-archive: yes
Sounds like it's time to end it. That doesn't mean failure on your part,
the probability that any single person you date is going to be your soul
mate is a bit low.
I hate the term soul mate anyways, loathe it. And yes it does feel like
failure on my part because every relationship I've had has been one where
I've felt that the other person felt as if I should be grateful that they
were giving me time of day. Now in my current living situation especially.
I know, I know, skewed thinking. Don't say it.
Better to find out now than to keep going.
*nod*
easier said than done, as I'm not quite ready to give up. But you are
right.
My neighbor was telling me about her son, he got stood up a month before
the wedding. Imagine if the woman got cold AFTER the wedding, after a
baby, etc...
BTDT and dearly paid. Don't think I'm not keeping that in the forefront of
my head. thing is this one I really feel for, it's him who I think just
enjoys having someone around to ease his hurt from his ex. I sense that I'm
just there to fill in the void and make the transition from the love of his
life using him brutally and cheating on him naively, to ease all those
feelings. But I will never measure up to her.
7 years is a big age gap too. Nothing wrong with that, it just
realistically makes things a little more complicated. Again, I say this
because it's not a reflection on you, but just the nature of the situation
itself. You like to take things these as evidence of your worthlessness,
which they are not.
thanks and I know what you're saying and on one hand know I need accept
this. Yet it's hard when sitting there and getting scraps from him because
he gave so much to her and hearing him basically say that.
(Hope tomorrow doesn't hurt too bad, btdt.)
other than forgetting half the ***** I did, and feeling really humilated.
Here's to the next 3 years (about the time span between bad drinking
episodes, enough time to forget what it takes to go from a happy buzz to
making an ***** out of myself drunk and miserable)
thanks Thor, hope you're doing well.
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