old coyote wrote:

Criswell The Psychic Weatherman <ssenate@mindless.com> wrote in
news:3EFA3C59.3017C97@mindless.com:

Sofia wrote:

Hi there,

I was wondering if you could help. Does anybody know if it is
possible to commit suicide using xanax or some other (similar)
medicine? Obviously I am looking for an easy, painless, calm
death.

Any ideas welcomed,
Sofia

Xanax isn't going to work. I'm speaking from experience. There's
something in Xanax, and a lot of meds like it, that keep it from
delivering a fatal dose. There's only so much Xanax the body will
absorb, and the rest, well, you'll sweat, *****, *****, vomit,
whatever ... the excess out. If you're like me, you'll sleep for a
whole day, or maybe two, but you'll be waking up from it.

Suicide is not easy, painless, or calm. For some reason, people
think it's easy, but it's not, and this adds to the list of
"failures". But, it's really not a failure - it's a chance to
consider everyone involved - parents, lovers, spouses, siblings,
children, friends, roommates, etc. There is nothing I can do to
stop you, or change your mind if you're determined, but I will ask
you, just for today, please don't.

Man, Cris, I am glad you are on my side. Well said. Well done.
--
-=oc=-

Thank you for saying this.

Old Coyote, it's taken me a lot of work to get here, and a lot of work
still ahead of me, and I'd be a fool to not acknowledge the much
greater work and efforts by those who wanted to help me, even when I
had given up.

There was a time when I was making several attempts a year, so I know
about this kind of "failure". Spending 5 years in the oppressive
stark bleakness of Utica, with its poor doctors and poor care, was
certainly a factor. Leaving Utica was virtually impossible, as happens
in such places of doom and dread, but with a lot of help from others,
[since I was incapable by myslef] I managed to do it, and have been
doing much better since. Even when I was at the point of not caring
at all, there were those who did, and eventually, I began to and start
to care, at least a little for myself. Then it tool a lot of time to
realize that, before I could help or care for someone else, I had to
be stable enough, and have to reserve enough extra energy for me
first. Then, what's left, I can use to help others, and not feel
totally drained in doing it. [This is still a toughie, because I
still tend to want to help far more than I'm capable of, and feel
frustrated a lot at my lack of being able to do anything.
Fortunately, time is healing this wound.]

Thanks again.
--
"A belief is not merely an idea the mind possesses;
it is an idea that possesses the mind." Robert Bolton
Criswell The Psychic Weatherman
ssenate@mindless.com