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24 Jul 2007 11:41:04 AM |
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The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
24 Jul 2007 01:53:34 PM |
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On 24 Jul, 17:41, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
and a very good morning to u2 Rosebush.
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
25 Jul 2007 02:21:34 AM |
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On Jul 24, 11:53 am, purpleveggie <purpleveg...@googlemail.com> wrote:
On 24 Jul, 17:41, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
and a very good morning to u2 Rosebush.- Hide quoted text -
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Why, thank ya purple veggieroot. ;-) Have a good day?
~Rose
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
25 Jul 2007 11:51:47 AM |
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On 25 Jul, 08:21, wrote:
On Jul 24, 11:53 am, purpleveggie <purpleveg...@googlemail.com> wrote:
On 24 Jul, 17:41, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
and a very good morning to u2 Rosebush.- Hide quoted text -
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Why, thank ya purple veggieroot. ;-) Have a good day?
~Rose- Hide quoted text -
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i saw my whole job go up in flames this afternoon.
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
26 Jul 2007 10:19:43 AM |
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On 24 Jul, 17:41, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me.
I think that's what it is! [But I don't have the morning
syndrome, only the midday plunge, and even with that benefit
I have a hard time remembering "it will lessen"
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
25 Jul 2007 12:16:31 PM |
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On Jul 25, 12:51 pm, purpleveggie <purpleveg...@googlemail.com> wrote:
On 25 Jul, 08:21, wrote:
On Jul 24, 11:53 am, purpleveggie <purpleveg...@googlemail.com> wrote:
On 24 Jul, 17:41, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
and a very good morning to u2 Rosebush.- Hide quoted text -
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Why, thank ya purple veggieroot. ;-) Have a good day?
~Rose- Hide quoted text -
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i saw my whole job go up in flames this afternoon.- Hide quoted text -
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Whoa, what happenned?
Bobbie
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| User: "purpleveggie" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
25 Jul 2007 04:56:25 PM |
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On 25 Jul, 18:16, "crysal...@yahoo.com" <crysal...@yahoo.com> wrote:
On Jul 25, 12:51 pm, purpleveggie <purpleveg...@googlemail.com> wrote:
On 25 Jul, 08:21, wrote:
On Jul 24, 11:53 am, purpleveggie <purpleveg...@googlemail.com> wrote:
On 24 Jul, 17:41, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
and a very good morning to u2 Rosebush.- Hide quoted text -
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Why, thank ya purple veggieroot. ;-) Have a good day?
~Rose- Hide quoted text -
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i saw my whole job go up in flames this afternoon.- Hide quoted text -
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Whoa, what happenned?
Bobbie- Hide quoted text -
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my cab caught fire :O(
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
24 Jul 2007 11:49:22 AM |
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On Jul 24, 9:41 am, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
Geez, when the poison *ISN'T* tangible but a only perceived feeling.
~Rose
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| User: "" |
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24 Jul 2007 03:59:37 PM |
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On Jul 24, 12:49 pm, wrote:
On Jul 24, 9:41 am, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
Geez, when the poison *ISN'T* tangible but a only perceived feeling.
~Rose- Hide quoted text -
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When I hit the moment of awakening, it's like I was able to forget who
I am and the prison my m ind has become while I was asleep. It hits me
all of a sudden in that "Morning rush of pain."
Very eloquently put.
Bobbie
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: The Morning Rush Of Pain... |
25 Jul 2007 02:20:38 AM |
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On Jul 24, 1:59 pm, "crysal...@yahoo.com" <crysal...@yahoo.com> wrote:
On Jul 24, 12:49 pm, wrote:
On Jul 24, 9:41 am, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
Geez, when the poison *ISN'T* tangible but a only perceived feeling.
~Rose- Hide quoted text -
- Show quoted text -
When I hit the moment of awakening, it's like I was able to forget who
I am and the prison my m ind has become while I was asleep. It hits me
all of a sudden in that "Morning rush of pain."
Very eloquently put.
Bobbie- Hide quoted text -
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Thank you Bobbie, and I'm sorry you experience the same sort of
thing. Are you new here?
~Rose
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| User: "" |
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25 Jul 2007 09:16:54 AM |
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On Jul 25, 3:20 am, wrote:
On Jul 24, 1:59 pm, "crysal...@yahoo.com" <crysal...@yahoo.com> wrote:
On Jul 24, 12:49 pm, wrote:
On Jul 24, 9:41 am, wrote:
It's like someone injected poison into me right before being fully
conscious upon awakening. It not only emotionally feels toxic,
emotionally painful, I have a physical response the the poison, an
obvious affect of a literal incident of injecting poison into me. But
when the poison is only tangible and not 'real' in terms of an actual
injection (the poison initiating from my own feelings that I'm not
fully aware of when I'm asleep) and the full throttle of those
emotions upon awakening, they leave me panicked and floundering and
gasping for air.
At the point of awakening I am more vulnerable to these ferocious
emotions than I am after battling them throughout the day. I just
feel so utterly consumed and unable to absorb the toxic poison into my
system enough to have the hope that I'm going to survive these
terrible moments. Their assault on me is truly like experiencing a
near death experience sometimes (very dramatic I know, but still this
is what it feels like to me). And the physical manifestations that
go hand in hand with my morning realization that I am once again awake
and alive and still living with the same pain, it's not shocking
anymore, but still seems unbelievable how connected and intertwined my
emotional and physical well being are. I hate this!
I dropped a tear in the ocean,
when I find it is the day I will
stop loving you.
By the way, good morning ASD.
~Rose
Geez, when the poison *ISN'T* tangible but a only perceived feeling.
~Rose- Hide quoted text -
- Show quoted text -
When I hit the moment of awakening, it's like I was able to forget who
I am and the prison my m ind has become while I was asleep. It hits me
all of a sudden in that "Morning rush of pain."
Very eloquently put.
Bobbie- Hide quoted text -
- Show quoted text -
Thank you Bobbie, and I'm sorry you experience the same sort of
thing. Are you new here?
~Rose- Hide quoted text -
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LOL, no. I have been an ASDer since '94 or 95. I just have long
periods of lurking, either because I can't muster the energy to post
or just need to distance myself.
Bobbie
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