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Sociology > Depression |
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"sAINT" |
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25 Jan 2008 08:14:55 AM |
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The sun is rising... |
How come I can't sleep? Normal people sleep at night. Why don't I?
Instead I start to realize how empty the world is, when I'm all alone,
in the middle of the night. Not even the sounds of cars going by
outside to remind me I'm not the only person alive.
And then I get these urges, where I get all manic, and have to clean,
to make my apartment look as nice as I can, I think it's my
subconscience trying to make up for how much of a mess my life is
right now.
Though I do have one thing I can look forward to, in a week and a
half, I'm going to be starting classes at the local community college.
I think it's something worth being proud of, since I'm 17. Though I'm
sure I could be doing a lot better then I am.
I don't know why I'm droning on about all this to you guys, it's not
like anyones awake or anything. :(
Though i would love to know there are other people in existence, if
anybody does happen to be awake.
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| User: "cal" |
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| Title: Re: The sun is rising... |
25 Jan 2008 08:52:56 AM |
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On 1/25/08 9:14 AM, in article
43609d47-377f-4cf0-8ebf-d1ee8d8d86aa@s19g2000prg.googlegroups.com, "(s)AINT"
<b.grinstead@gmail.com> wrote:
How come I can't sleep? Normal people sleep at night. Why don't I?
Instead I start to realize how empty the world is, when I'm all alone,
in the middle of the night. Not even the sounds of cars going by
outside to remind me I'm not the only person alive.
And then I get these urges, where I get all manic, and have to clean,
to make my apartment look as nice as I can, I think it's my
subconscience trying to make up for how much of a mess my life is
right now.
Though I do have one thing I can look forward to, in a week and a
half, I'm going to be starting classes at the local community college.
I think it's something worth being proud of, since I'm 17. Though I'm
sure I could be doing a lot better then I am.
I don't know why I'm droning on about all this to you guys, it's not
like anyones awake or anything. :(
Though i would love to know there are other people in existence, if
anybody does happen to be awake.
i'm awake, but it's 9:51 in the morning here and i'm just heading off to
work.
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| User: "BoredToTears" |
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| Title: Re: The sun is rising... |
25 Jan 2008 09:26:09 AM |
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On 25 Jan, 14:14, "(s)AINT" <b.grinst...@gmail.com> wrote:
How come I can't sleep? Normal people sleep at night.
Why don't I?
"Normal" ain't all it's cracked up to be. Take it from someone who's
spent years trying to work out what normal was only to discover it's
the last thing I want. Don't be fooled by the dominant narrative that
runs through society; be yourself and allow society to adjust to you,
there's plenty of room it just takes a bit of determination. There are
the obvious caveats that go along with that - obeying the law, etc., -
but there is still a lot of scope to be yourself and not be subsumed
by what many have described as the "tyranny of the shoulds".
Instead I start to realize how empty the world is, when I'm all alone,
in the middle of the night. Not even the sounds of cars going by
outside to remind me I'm not the only person alive.
That can be tough but you're not the first person to feel that way,
Napoleon Bonaparte spoke of "2 a.m. courage" and how difficult it is
to face our fears when we are at our lowest ebb. But you did, you got
through it, that's an achievement in itself.
And then I get these urges, where I get all manic, and have to clean,
to make my apartment look as nice as I can, I think it's my
subconscience trying to make up for how much of a mess my life is
right now.
It's good you have some insight into your motivations, many of us
struggle with that. I hope you can build upon it, it's a good skill to
develop and will be a great help to you throughout your life.
Though I do have one thing I can look forward to, in a week and a
half, I'm going to be starting classes at the local community college.
I think it's something worth being proud of, since I'm 17. Though I'm
sure I could be doing a lot better then I am.
That *is* something to be proud of and you should allow yourself to
take the credit for it.
I don't know why I'm droning on about all this to you guys, it's not
like anyones awake or anything. :(
Some of us are, some of us live in different time zones.
Though i would love to know there are other people in existence, if
anybody does happen to be awake.
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| User: "sAINT" |
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| Title: Re: The sun is rising... |
25 Jan 2008 08:21:49 AM |
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On Jan 25, 6:14 am, "(s)AINT" <b.grinst...@gmail.com> wrote:
How come I can't sleep? Normal people sleep at night. Why don't I?
Instead I start to realize how empty the world is, when I'm all alone,
in the middle of the night. Not even the sounds of cars going by
outside to remind me I'm not the only person alive.
And then I get these urges, where I get all manic, and have to clean,
to make my apartment look as nice as I can, I think it's my
subconscience trying to make up for how much of a mess my life is
right now.
Though I do have one thing I can look forward to, in a week and a
half, I'm going to be starting classes at the local community college.
I think it's something worth being proud of, since I'm 17. Though I'm
sure I could be doing a lot better then I am.
I don't know why I'm droning on about all this to you guys, it's not
like anyones awake or anything. :(
Though i would love to know there are other people in existence, if
anybody does happen to be awake.
Also, I should have thought about how much of a bad idea it was going
to be to look at pictures of me and my ex. Now I'm really fucking
alone.
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| User: "BoredToTears" |
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| Title: Re: The sun is rising... |
25 Jan 2008 09:28:19 AM |
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On 25 Jan, 14:21, "(s)AINT" <b.grinst...@gmail.com> wrote:
On Jan 25, 6:14 am, "(s)AINT" <b.grinst...@gmail.com> wrote:
How come I can't sleep? Normal people sleep at night. Why don't I?
Instead I start to realize how empty the world is, when I'm all alone,
in the middle of the night. Not even the sounds of cars going by
outside to remind me I'm not the only person alive.
And then I get these urges, where I get all manic, and have to clean,
to make my apartment look as nice as I can, I think it's my
subconscience trying to make up for how much of a mess my life is
right now.
Though I do have one thing I can look forward to, in a week and a
half, I'm going to be starting classes at the local community college.
I think it's something worth being proud of, since I'm 17. Though I'm
sure I could be doing a lot better then I am.
I don't know why I'm droning on about all this to you guys, it's not
like anyones awake or anything. :(
Though i would love to know there are other people in existence, if
anybody does happen to be awake.
Also, I should have thought about how much of a bad idea it was going
to be to look at pictures of me and my ex. Now I'm really fucking
alone.
Then perhaps it's time to put those photographs away in a place of
safe-keeping, out of easy reach?
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