"Translucent Troglodyte" <translucent.troglodyte@gmail.com> wrote in
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And I'm sorry for unloading stuff here that stresses people out.

Actually I'd rather you talked about it. As long as you're talking
you're not doing and besides, it doesn't stress me out all that much.
Truth is I feel really sad and a little angry at the life that is
kicking your ***** and have this overwhelming sense of compassion for
you and sudden surges of what can I do to help this lovely woman, but
not stress in a bad way that hurts me. You don't have to apologize
for unloading here. I mean, you can and I won't talk you out of it,
but that's why we're here. The whole point is to unload on us. To
talk about the bad times, to go through the mechanics, the plans, the
options, say the words, and hash it out in a safe place where people
care a lot about you, and aren't going to freak out everytime you say
"suicide". The beauty of this though is that you don't get to say
what we can and can't handle. Only we do. If I had a serious
problem with it I would have stayed out of your thread so how about
you just trust me on that score. :-)

There is simply too much to deal with, some of it can't be dealt with
except through "acceptance" and I'm sick and tired of accepting loss
after loss, failure after failure.

The best we can do is try and talk someone out of a decision like
this. Ultimately we can't actually do anything about it. But I
figure it like this. This kind of a decision is usually made when we
are not at our best or our healthiest. When we are not thinking
clearly. When we are all out of hope. When trying to see life
beyond our immediate pain is like trying to make out the details
through a dirty window. I think it's impossible to make the right or
the best decision for ourselves under those circumstances. One thing
I learned is that timing is everything and life can change in the
blink of an eye. Sometimes it scares the ***** out of me to know that
there was a time when the only thing between me and nothingness and
me and everything since then was a grubby window and five more hours.
Talk about a tragedy. Not a risk I'm willing to take ever again. I
know it's different for everyone, but I really hope it isn't for you.

People die every day, some in ways extremely more heinous than what I
want to do. Everything lives and dies, why is human life worth more
than that of other animals, plants, microbes? Accidents happen all
the time.

Including the life of the guy who is going to develop a cure for all
that ails you? Or any of us? I suppose possibility is the reason
why human life is important to me. We have no way of knowing how
important our role here might be or the kind of ripple affect our
lives will have on this world or the people in it or vice versa, how
me might benefit from others lives. Not unless we stick around and
find out. The "you never know" is what keeps me here now.

On Jan 17, 11:37 am, Translucent Troglodyte



<translucent.troglod...@gmail.com> wrote:

And I'm sorry for unloading stuff here that stresses people out.

There is simply too much to deal with, some of it can't be dealt with
except through "acceptance" and I'm sick and tired of accepting loss
after loss, failure after failure.

People die every day, some in ways extremely more heinous than what I
want to do. Everything lives and dies, why is human life worth more
than that of other animals, plants, microbes? Accidents happen all
the time.

I'll stop bothering y'all now.

TT
--
Moving Beyond the Binary Gender Option

You're not bothering us. That's what we're here for. Keep posting.

Don't give -up as i said, be strong enough to accept all your losses
and failures. Balance yourself to think wisely and good. Don't put
yourself to a critical situation that you are not only the one affected
times you do that. Keep out away from people who you think cannot
give you a good courages in your life. All of us has losses and failures
co'z that is part of our lives. Before our parents gave birth to us it was
already written what life of every individual role on this World. Tighten your
faith on him and he will carry you on the right direction of your life.
We are worth than anything else because we have a role to do on this
World base on his words of Wisdom. If what your real situation this time
please accept it with full of care. As i said don't give-up need you more to
be strong at your present situation. Keep on posting here!

On Jan 17, 8:37?am, Translucent Troglodyte
<translucent.troglod...@gmail.com> wrote:

And I'm sorry for unloading stuff here that stresses people out.

[you] personally don't stress me out at all or bother me in the least.
if anything I wish you'd post more and keep posting your way through
this.
Because I couldn't possibly know if the next thing I
tried would help. Because continuing to try is the best option there
is despite my illness screaming inside me that I should just stop
trying.
You are cared about and I hope you'll stay here.

Translucent Troglodyte <translucent.troglod...@gmail.com>
wrote...

And I'm sorry for unloading stuff here that stresses people
out.

There is simply too much to deal with, some of it can't be
dealt with except through "acceptance" and I'm sick and
tired of accepting loss after loss, failure after failure.

People die every day, some in ways extremely more heinous
than what I want to do. Everything lives and dies, why is
human life worth more than that of other animals, plants,
microbes? Accidents happen all the time.

I'll stop bothering y'all now.

TT

Human life might not be worth more, but means more to other
beings, particularly other humans. Other creatures seem to
accommodate loss of life better than we do. For us, it's a
trauma, especially to people who know us and/or love us. It
still hurts me to think of acquaintances who have taken their
lives, people I didn't know as well as I do you.