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Sociology > Depression |
| User: |
"jamie dolan \AKA OCD Boy" |
| Date: |
26 Dec 2004 09:16:26 PM |
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to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
By now you all know I am having an ongoing strugle with
OCD
Depression
Anixeity
ADHA
Here is my life work history:
In Years old:
15 - 16 worked part time doing data entry
16 - 20 Started and operated a company
21 - 23 Sold the company, but stayed working at it
23 - 25 Started a new company - failed as my relationship and my ocd
/ depression / anixeity got worse
Personal history:
Starting at 7 or 8 diagnosiused with learning disabilites and ADD
13 Molested by a close friend of the same sex
14 grand father died on moms side
15 - 16 Short 9 month relationship some intimacy
17 grand mother on dads side died
18 grand father died on dads side
16 - 20 3.5 year relationship -- was a hard relationship, with a
very hard end. she left me for one of my employees. Then when I tried to
call her, they she flat out told me that she would make false alegations
that I raped her.
20 - 22 new relationship. not good not horriable -- but not really
that great. i dumped her.
22 - 25 Relathionship with karen -- she walked out on me...
25 printing business failed
25 illness got to its worst.
25 grandma got very ill, but is still alive.
I have spoke to my thearpist(s) about all of this stuff but I am not sure if
I have closure on any of it or what is going on.....
Now I am cripled by my anixiety and I am trying to decide when and if to go
back to work or if I should apply for disability and such.
and if I work again, do I do something for working for myself or do I try to
work for anyone else?
the Pressure of other people and bosses can really get to me, being the
second to last business the merger, the pressure really really got to me, so
I dontk now if I would be able to handle working for someone else or if I
should try and force myself to work for someone else. but I am afarid my
anixeity and ocd...will be too bad to to do the job or even go to the job.
so I dont know what to do.
I am in serious financial trouble, with no reliable way to stay in my home
if i dont make some moeny. but I dont want to have a total break down again.
So how do I decide when it is time to go back to work and to what work do I
go back to?
any how do i decide how much more thearpy i need.
maybe some group thearpy here will help me..
Jamie
--
-Jamie
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
26 Dec 2004 09:47:22 PM |
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"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104117384.132bdcad0f8488d52bbce929efcaa110@teranews...
By now you all know I am having an ongoing strugle with
OCD
Depression
Anixeity
ADHA
Here is my life work history:
In Years old:
15 - 16 worked part time doing data entry
16 - 20 Started and operated a company
21 - 23 Sold the company, but stayed working at it
23 - 25 Started a new company - failed as my relationship and my
ocd
/ depression / anixeity got worse
Personal history:
Starting at 7 or 8 diagnosiused with learning disabilites and ADD
13 Molested by a close friend of the same sex
14 grand father died on moms side
15 - 16 Short 9 month relationship some intimacy
17 grand mother on dads side died
18 grand father died on dads side
16 - 20 3.5 year relationship -- was a hard relationship, with a
very hard end. she left me for one of my employees. Then when I tried to
call her, they she flat out told me that she would make false alegations
that I raped her.
20 - 22 new relationship. not good not horriable -- but not really
that great. i dumped her.
22 - 25 Relathionship with karen -- she walked out on me...
25 printing business failed
25 illness got to its worst.
25 grandma got very ill, but is still alive.
I have spoke to my thearpist(s) about all of this stuff but I am not sure
if
I have closure on any of it or what is going on.....
Now I am cripled by my anixiety and I am trying to decide when and if to
go
back to work or if I should apply for disability and such.
and if I work again, do I do something for working for myself or do I try
to
work for anyone else?
the Pressure of other people and bosses can really get to me, being the
second to last business the merger, the pressure really really got to me,
so
I dontk now if I would be able to handle working for someone else or if I
should try and force myself to work for someone else. but I am afarid my
anixeity and ocd...will be too bad to to do the job or even go to the job.
so I dont know what to do.
I am in serious financial trouble, with no reliable way to stay in my home
if i dont make some moeny. but I dont want to have a total break down
again.
So how do I decide when it is time to go back to work and to what work do
I
go back to?
any how do i decide how much more thearpy i need.
maybe some group thearpy here will help me..
Jamie
--
-Jamie
enjoy being the age you are and do what you like to do ,
later on , everybody you know dies , all the companies get sold ,
and everyone wants to molest the cash out of your pockets
.
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| User: "jamie dolan \AKA OCD Boy" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
26 Dec 2004 10:29:21 PM |
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They have all already taken all of my money.
and people sue me all the time.
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
news:339erqF3uasrlU1@individual.net...
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104117384.132bdcad0f8488d52bbce929efcaa110@teranews...
By now you all know I am having an ongoing strugle with
OCD
Depression
Anixeity
ADHA
Here is my life work history:
In Years old:
15 - 16 worked part time doing data entry
16 - 20 Started and operated a company
21 - 23 Sold the company, but stayed working at it
23 - 25 Started a new company - failed as my relationship and my
ocd
/ depression / anixeity got worse
Personal history:
Starting at 7 or 8 diagnosiused with learning disabilites and ADD
13 Molested by a close friend of the same sex
14 grand father died on moms side
15 - 16 Short 9 month relationship some intimacy
17 grand mother on dads side died
18 grand father died on dads side
16 - 20 3.5 year relationship -- was a hard relationship, with a
very hard end. she left me for one of my employees. Then when I tried
to
call her, they she flat out told me that she would make false alegations
that I raped her.
20 - 22 new relationship. not good not horriable -- but not really
that great. i dumped her.
22 - 25 Relathionship with karen -- she walked out on me...
25 printing business failed
25 illness got to its worst.
25 grandma got very ill, but is still alive.
I have spoke to my thearpist(s) about all of this stuff but I am not sure
if
I have closure on any of it or what is going on.....
Now I am cripled by my anixiety and I am trying to decide when and if to
go
back to work or if I should apply for disability and such.
and if I work again, do I do something for working for myself or do I try
to
work for anyone else?
the Pressure of other people and bosses can really get to me, being the
second to last business the merger, the pressure really really got to me,
so
I dontk now if I would be able to handle working for someone else or if I
should try and force myself to work for someone else. but I am afarid my
anixeity and ocd...will be too bad to to do the job or even go to the
job.
so I dont know what to do.
I am in serious financial trouble, with no reliable way to stay in my
home
if i dont make some moeny. but I dont want to have a total break down
again.
So how do I decide when it is time to go back to work and to what work do
I
go back to?
any how do i decide how much more thearpy i need.
maybe some group thearpy here will help me..
Jamie
--
-Jamie
enjoy being the age you are and do what you like to do ,
later on , everybody you know dies , all the companies get sold ,
and everyone wants to molest the cash out of your pockets
.
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
26 Dec 2004 10:34:34 PM |
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well , get use to it cause that's all there is ,
with an occasional piece of ***** in between
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104121760.3a4b0f27718002f3e144a31bbb8fa4ce@teranews...
They have all already taken all of my money.
and people sue me all the time.
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
news:339erqF3uasrlU1@individual.net...
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104117384.132bdcad0f8488d52bbce929efcaa110@teranews...
By now you all know I am having an ongoing strugle with
OCD
Depression
Anixeity
ADHA
Here is my life work history:
In Years old:
15 - 16 worked part time doing data entry
16 - 20 Started and operated a company
21 - 23 Sold the company, but stayed working at it
23 - 25 Started a new company - failed as my relationship and my
ocd
/ depression / anixeity got worse
Personal history:
Starting at 7 or 8 diagnosiused with learning disabilites and ADD
13 Molested by a close friend of the same sex
14 grand father died on moms side
15 - 16 Short 9 month relationship some intimacy
17 grand mother on dads side died
18 grand father died on dads side
16 - 20 3.5 year relationship -- was a hard relationship, with
a
very hard end. she left me for one of my employees. Then when I tried
to
call her, they she flat out told me that she would make false
alegations
that I raped her.
20 - 22 new relationship. not good not horriable -- but not
really
that great. i dumped her.
22 - 25 Relathionship with karen -- she walked out on me...
25 printing business failed
25 illness got to its worst.
25 grandma got very ill, but is still alive.
I have spoke to my thearpist(s) about all of this stuff but I am not
sure
if
I have closure on any of it or what is going on.....
Now I am cripled by my anixiety and I am trying to decide when and if
to
go
back to work or if I should apply for disability and such.
and if I work again, do I do something for working for myself or do I
try
to
work for anyone else?
the Pressure of other people and bosses can really get to me, being the
second to last business the merger, the pressure really really got to
me,
so
I dontk now if I would be able to handle working for someone else or if
I
should try and force myself to work for someone else. but I am afarid
my
anixeity and ocd...will be too bad to to do the job or even go to the
job.
so I dont know what to do.
I am in serious financial trouble, with no reliable way to stay in my
home
if i dont make some moeny. but I dont want to have a total break down
again.
So how do I decide when it is time to go back to work and to what work
do
I
go back to?
any how do i decide how much more thearpy i need.
maybe some group thearpy here will help me..
Jamie
--
-Jamie
enjoy being the age you are and do what you like to do ,
later on , everybody you know dies , all the companies get sold ,
and everyone wants to molest the cash out of your pockets
.
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| User: "jamie dolan \AKA OCD Boy" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
27 Dec 2004 12:06:27 AM |
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HA HA
yes.. Someass in between would be nice.
Any one out there AVAILABLE???
LOL
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
news:339hk9F3sm8emU1@individual.net...
well , get use to it cause that's all there is ,
with an occasional piece of ***** in between
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104121760.3a4b0f27718002f3e144a31bbb8fa4ce@teranews...
They have all already taken all of my money.
and people sue me all the time.
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
news:339erqF3uasrlU1@individual.net...
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104117384.132bdcad0f8488d52bbce929efcaa110@teranews...
By now you all know I am having an ongoing strugle with
OCD
Depression
Anixeity
ADHA
Here is my life work history:
In Years old:
15 - 16 worked part time doing data entry
16 - 20 Started and operated a company
21 - 23 Sold the company, but stayed working at it
23 - 25 Started a new company - failed as my relationship and
my
ocd
/ depression / anixeity got worse
Personal history:
Starting at 7 or 8 diagnosiused with learning disabilites and ADD
13 Molested by a close friend of the same sex
14 grand father died on moms side
15 - 16 Short 9 month relationship some intimacy
17 grand mother on dads side died
18 grand father died on dads side
16 - 20 3.5 year relationship -- was a hard relationship, with
a
very hard end. she left me for one of my employees. Then when I
tried
to
call her, they she flat out told me that she would make false
alegations
that I raped her.
20 - 22 new relationship. not good not horriable -- but not
really
that great. i dumped her.
22 - 25 Relathionship with karen -- she walked out on me...
25 printing business failed
25 illness got to its worst.
25 grandma got very ill, but is still alive.
I have spoke to my thearpist(s) about all of this stuff but I am not
sure
if
I have closure on any of it or what is going on.....
Now I am cripled by my anixiety and I am trying to decide when and if
to
go
back to work or if I should apply for disability and such.
and if I work again, do I do something for working for myself or do I
try
to
work for anyone else?
the Pressure of other people and bosses can really get to me, being
the
second to last business the merger, the pressure really really got to
me,
so
I dontk now if I would be able to handle working for someone else or
if
I
should try and force myself to work for someone else. but I am afarid
my
anixeity and ocd...will be too bad to to do the job or even go to the
job.
so I dont know what to do.
I am in serious financial trouble, with no reliable way to stay in my
home
if i dont make some moeny. but I dont want to have a total break down
again.
So how do I decide when it is time to go back to work and to what work
do
I
go back to?
any how do i decide how much more thearpy i need.
maybe some group thearpy here will help me..
Jamie
--
-Jamie
enjoy being the age you are and do what you like to do ,
later on , everybody you know dies , all the companies get sold ,
and everyone wants to molest the cash out of your pockets
.
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| User: "jamie dolan \AKA OCD Boy" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
27 Dec 2004 01:55:50 AM |
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Perhaps none of us are ill.
Perhaps we all just have our own special tallent, and we are all searching
for that special way to fit info the world.
We all have something of value to offer. If we are open minded, we can not
only give, but we can receive.
It is all a matter of prespective.
Am I ill or is everyone else Ill? Is the cancer paient ill or are they the
one that is well that is ready to move on to the next stage in there life?
I do not have the power to judge you and I do not think anyone else has the
righ to judge you, your though or expressions either. You are your only
judge, and you can and only should hold yourself to your own expectations.
I ask all these questions, asorbe all this information. You all seem to
presume this is so I can diagnosis myself, and fix myself.
Perhaps, I am just finding 999 things that are not wrong with me, but are
right with you.
We are all special.
Remember, we all exist in our own realities, and what we make of our reality
is what your reality is.
You are what you think you are, And you think what you are.
Each of us with a so called illness has been given or manifested this
illness for some reason in our life journey, for some of us the reason we
have this ilness will or may become appherant eaisly and quickly, and for
others it will take the sun of our natural born lives, and for even other it
will take us eons longer than that.
But we are all special and we all learn, and we all eventally get where we
want to be.
Tonight, I decided where I want to go and what I want to do. Are you ready
for this from me? You are surely expecting something long winded, some long
story about how I want to be this and that and do this and that. So the
answer to your questions, as to what I want to do:
Help People.
Love, Peace, and Joy to all and to all a good night.
-Jamie
--
-Jamie
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104127585.2744a6bb79e9284df22d05868d8004c2@teranews...
HA HA
yes.. Someass in between would be nice.
Any one out there AVAILABLE???
LOL
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
news:339hk9F3sm8emU1@individual.net...
well , get use to it cause that's all there is ,
with an occasional piece of ***** in between
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104121760.3a4b0f27718002f3e144a31bbb8fa4ce@teranews...
They have all already taken all of my money.
and people sue me all the time.
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
news:339erqF3uasrlU1@individual.net...
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104117384.132bdcad0f8488d52bbce929efcaa110@teranews...
By now you all know I am having an ongoing strugle with
OCD
Depression
Anixeity
ADHA
Here is my life work history:
In Years old:
15 - 16 worked part time doing data entry
16 - 20 Started and operated a company
21 - 23 Sold the company, but stayed working at it
23 - 25 Started a new company - failed as my relationship and
my
ocd
/ depression / anixeity got worse
Personal history:
Starting at 7 or 8 diagnosiused with learning disabilites and ADD
13 Molested by a close friend of the same sex
14 grand father died on moms side
15 - 16 Short 9 month relationship some intimacy
17 grand mother on dads side died
18 grand father died on dads side
16 - 20 3.5 year relationship -- was a hard relationship,
with
a
very hard end. she left me for one of my employees. Then when I
tried
to
call her, they she flat out told me that she would make false
alegations
that I raped her.
20 - 22 new relationship. not good not horriable -- but not
really
that great. i dumped her.
22 - 25 Relathionship with karen -- she walked out on me...
25 printing business failed
25 illness got to its worst.
25 grandma got very ill, but is still alive.
I have spoke to my thearpist(s) about all of this stuff but I am not
sure
if
I have closure on any of it or what is going on.....
Now I am cripled by my anixiety and I am trying to decide when and if
to
go
back to work or if I should apply for disability and such.
and if I work again, do I do something for working for myself or do I
try
to
work for anyone else?
the Pressure of other people and bosses can really get to me, being
the
second to last business the merger, the pressure really really got to
me,
so
I dontk now if I would be able to handle working for someone else or
if
I
should try and force myself to work for someone else. but I am
afarid
my
anixeity and ocd...will be too bad to to do the job or even go to the
job.
so I dont know what to do.
I am in serious financial trouble, with no reliable way to stay in my
home
if i dont make some moeny. but I dont want to have a total break down
again.
So how do I decide when it is time to go back to work and to what
work
do
I
go back to?
any how do i decide how much more thearpy i need.
maybe some group thearpy here will help me..
Jamie
--
-Jamie
enjoy being the age you are and do what you like to do ,
later on , everybody you know dies , all the companies get sold ,
and everyone wants to molest the cash out of your pockets
.
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
27 Dec 2004 02:16:12 AM |
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"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104134148.778c83e5eed63f75d9211763f2cf5f86@teranews...
Perhaps none of us are ill.
perhaps we are
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| User: "jamie dolan" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
27 Dec 2004 02:57:34 AM |
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Anything is possible.
It was just something to make you think.
and to keep all of us open minded.
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
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"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104134148.778c83e5eed63f75d9211763f2cf5f86@teranews...
Perhaps none of us are ill.
perhaps we are
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| User: "%" |
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| Title: Re: to work or not to work? How do I decide if I can handle it.... |
27 Dec 2004 03:08:49 AM |
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if i make it possible it might be
"jamie dolan" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:28Qzd.3812$Y8.2426@newssvr17.news.prodigy.com...
Anything is possible.
It was just something to make you think.
and to keep all of us open minded.
--
-Jamie
"%" <Percent@zdnetmail.com> wrote in message
news:339ujuF3t9epgU1@individual.net...
"jamie dolan (AKA OCD Boy)" <jamie@ashwoodinc.com> wrote in message
news:1104134148.778c83e5eed63f75d9211763f2cf5f86@teranews...
Perhaps none of us are ill.
perhaps we are
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