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Sociology > Depression |
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"Who Cares" |
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02 Apr 2005 10:54:06 AM |
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u kno wat |
if i were to die right now ... there would be about 6 people whoz lives
will be so badly effected that at least 1 of them would kill herself ..
the rest would forget how to ever be happy ... thatz why i don't do it.
but then .. why do i still want to?
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: u kno wat |
02 Apr 2005 08:25:35 PM |
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Who Cares wrote...
if i were to die right now ... there would be about 6
people whoz lives will be so badly effected that at least 1
of them would kill herself .. the rest would forget how to
ever be happy ... thatz why i don't do it.
but then .. why do i still want to?
i can't do it either, because i have kids. i figure that by
having them, i entered into an implicit contract to be there for
them. i often regret it, but i just can't die.
otoh, the death wish has been with me, to a greater or lesser
extent, for the past 8 years now. it's part of the disease. the
part of us that doesn't want to feel like this anymore. the part
we have to tell to 'get the hell out of my head.' and sometimes
it does, for awhile.
i wish you peaceful thoughts. every one of us deserves them.
-lisa
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: u kno wat |
02 Apr 2005 01:35:49 PM |
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heh... I know what you mean. except for the peoples lives being
affected part. My death would only affect maybe 3 or 4 people, and
they'd forget it eventually and live happy lives. But still, I don't
want to die either, but every time I lie down in bed I think about
it... And whenever I see a razor or stand from a high place, its really
hard not to think about cutting my wrists or jumping off... I mean part
of me thinks that death might be a nice peaceful place, as opposed to
what the world is now. And another part thinks that everything I want
from life is unattainable and, theres no point in trying. I'm not sure
I want to die, i just want to stop feeling like *****.
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