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Sociology > Depression |
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"lisa in mass." |
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11 Oct 2004 09:07:11 PM |
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unfortunately |
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do something
that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it has much
consequence now, though i remember that's not how i felt this
morning.
-lisa
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| User: "=^.^=" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
12 Oct 2004 05:17:04 AM |
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On 12 Oct 2004 02:07:11 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do something=20
that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it has much=20
consequence now, though i remember that's not how i felt this=20
morning.
it would be different for me
if I went numb, I wouldn't be
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
12 Oct 2004 03:13:20 PM |
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=^.^= wrote...
On 12 Oct 2004 02:07:11 GMT, "lisa in mass."
<mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do
something that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it has
much consequence now, though i remember that's not how i
felt this morning.
it would be different for me
if I went numb, I wouldn't be
i know what you mean. that's my concern. i think i'll always
uphold my implicit contract with my kids to be here, but i might
not care for a little too long.
-lisa
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| User: "=^.^=" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
13 Oct 2004 02:08:17 AM |
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On 12 Oct 2004 20:13:20 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
=3D^.^=3D wrote...
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do
something that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it has
much consequence now, though i remember that's not how i
felt this morning.
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it would be different for me
if I went numb, I wouldn't be
i know what you mean. that's my concern. i think i'll always=20
uphold my implicit contract with my kids to be here, but i might=20
not care for a little too long.
-lisa
I'm not contracting anymore, considering the prior outcomes
but there is one case I know of that I would...
<more than just catnoizezz>
I don't know if it would happen, tho
and I'm not in any rush to find-out...
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| User: "GlennT" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
12 Oct 2004 03:27:41 AM |
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lisa in mass. wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do something
that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it has much
consequence now, though i remember that's not how i felt this
morning.
-lisa
I keep reminding myself to not take it seriously. Not at all...
The feelings are real but the ability to do much about them
isn't. I want them to end and I never want them to stop... go figure.
Hugs
GlennT
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
12 Oct 2004 03:09:37 PM |
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GlennT wrote...
lisa in mass. wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do
something that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it
has much consequence now, though i remember that's not how
i felt this morning.
-lisa
I keep reminding myself to not take it seriously. Not at
all... The feelings are real but the ability to do much
about them isn't. I want them to end and I never want them
to stop... go figure.
Hugs
GlennT
that's my problem. nothing seems too important. i can't take
anything too seiously right now. i think it's not going to stop,
at least not for a long time. too deeply embedded.
-lisa
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| User: "humble.life" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
11 Oct 2004 09:49:14 PM |
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lisa in mass. wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do something
that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it has much
consequence now, though i remember that's not how i felt this
morning.
-lisa
maybe try to think of nothing. literally.
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| User: "lisa in mass." |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
11 Oct 2004 09:57:52 PM |
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humble.life wrote...
lisa in mass. wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do
something that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it
has much consequence now, though i remember that's not how
i felt this morning.
-lisa
maybe try to think of nothing. literally.
i can't think of nothing. i can and do feel nothing, but i can't
stop thinking.
-lisa
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| User: "=^.^=" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
12 Oct 2004 06:19:23 AM |
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On 12 Oct 2004 02:57:52 GMT, "lisa in mass." <mccats@rcn.com> wrote:
i can't think of nothing. i can and do feel nothing, but i can't=20
stop thinking.
a dose of midazolam can do it. but, it metabolizes
....last time I think I did another OBE in the clinic
I'm ordering a box of 15mg. tablets to see how they are
and some Dalmane. it promises a full 8 hours of sleep
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| User: "humble.life" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
11 Oct 2004 10:40:16 PM |
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lisa in mass. wrote:
humble.life wrote...
lisa in mass. wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do
something that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it
has much consequence now, though i remember that's not how
i felt this morning.
-lisa
maybe try to think of nothing. literally.
i can't think of nothing. i can and do feel nothing, but i can't
stop thinking.
-lisa
that's one of my things too. if i can't get the bad stuff to stop, i
usually just end up going nuts.
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| User: "sortfaar" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
12 Oct 2004 08:28:58 AM |
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"humble.life" <humble.life@lycos.co.uk> wrote in message news:<2t11pgF1ptm6dU1@uni-berlin.de>...
lisa in mass. wrote:
humble.life wrote...
lisa in mass. wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do
something that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it
has much consequence now, though i remember that's not how
i felt this morning.
-lisa
maybe try to think of nothing. literally.
i can't think of nothing. i can and do feel nothing, but i can't
stop thinking.
-lisa
that's one of my things too. if i can't get the bad stuff to stop, i
usually just end up going nuts.
Have you tried thinking of something fairly meaningless & safe? To
"block" bad thoughts? I do that to fall asleep sometimes, saying a
word/short phrase over and over in my head while at the same time
imagining a visual pattern like a rotating spiral, waves or similar.
Keeps my mind occupied so I can't think about problems, but it's so
boring I fall asleep. If falling asleep is not the goal, reciting
poetry, songs, multiplication tables etc. in my head can do the same
trick. Trying to "not think of something" is difficult. (Everybody:
_don't_ think about pink elephants!)
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| User: "humble.life" |
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| Title: Re: unfortunately |
12 Oct 2004 11:02:34 AM |
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sortfaar wrote:
"humble.life" <humble.life@lycos.co.uk> wrote in message news:<2t11pgF1ptm6dU1@uni-berlin.de>...
lisa in mass. wrote:
humble.life wrote...
lisa in mass. wrote:
being numb makes it that much more likely that i do
something that i'll regret later. nothing feels like it
has much consequence now, though i remember that's not how
i felt this morning.
-lisa
maybe try to think of nothing. literally.
i can't think of nothing. i can and do feel nothing, but i can't
stop thinking.
-lisa
that's one of my things too. if i can't get the bad stuff to stop, i
usually just end up going nuts.
Have you tried thinking of something fairly meaningless & safe? To
"block" bad thoughts? I do that to fall asleep sometimes, saying a
word/short phrase over and over in my head while at the same time
imagining a visual pattern like a rotating spiral, waves or similar.
Keeps my mind occupied so I can't think about problems, but it's so
boring I fall asleep. If falling asleep is not the goal, reciting
poetry, songs, multiplication tables etc. in my head can do the same
trick. Trying to "not think of something" is difficult. (Everybody:
_don't_ think about pink elephants!)
i usually end up thinking (and chanting) "shut the ***** up you noisy
neighbour *****, stop watching loud TV until 5am".
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