"mighty mouse" <kye_99@NOSPAMyahoo.com> wrote in message
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My brain is still trying to digest what this new therp told me about
possibly having borderline personality disorder. I was ok at first, I

tired and didn't really think about it that much. Now, a week later,

totally freaked out by it and I've been reading all I can find about
symptoms, treatment and long term outcomes.

i just am not sure i "see" bpd in you, but obviously i'm not a therp. she
sure seemed quick to jump on that diagnosis. usually it takes YEARS of
therapy to receive a diagnosis of bpd. i was given the same news as you,
but only after i'd been seeing my therp for quite some time. i did alot

research and felt panicked about it just like you are now, but i came to
realize that i'm not very bpd after all. sure, i have some of the signs

i think), but so do a whole lot of other people. (princess diana is a
famous example). those who are truly bpd are unable to even acknowledge
that they might be borderline. and they have tremendous anger issues.

they tend to have a love/hate relationship with their therps and doctors.
the more i read, the better i felt. yes, i'm a little bit bpd, but i can
live with it. hopefully you will be able to come to that same

kylie. let me know if i can help.

also, i was given the book "i hate you, don't leave me!" by my therp, and

was a most excellent read about living with borderline personality

if you can get a copy of it, i highly recommend reading it.

take care girl. and get some sleep!

~u2b

Hi!

mighty mouse schrieb:

I got almost zero sleep last night, and it wasn't because I was up all

partying after the soccer. I slept too much over the weekend and I just
couldn't sleep at night when I needed to. Surprisingly I'm really not

tired now. I really hope I'm able to get a decent nights sleep in a few
hours because I don't know how I'll manage after 2 virtually sleepless
nights.

I hope you'll sleep!

Though when I stay awake for two nights I actually don't feel too bad. I
rather feel drunk then. That's okay. And I won't get a hangover which I
find is fair.

My brain is still trying to digest what this new therp told me about

[...]

I don't know what I'm asking for, or why I'm going to bother posting

ramble. Thanks to anyone who made it to the end.


Kylie

I would be as confused as you if I was in your situation I guess.

The two therps I've been to diagnosed me with depression. I'm now
searching for a pdoc but haven't got an appointment yet. Since the
therps said I've got a fu**ing (sorry) depression I'm reading all what I
find about the subject, finding symptoms on me and sometimes also on
others (my brother for example). I suppose I should better stop
gathering as much info as I can. It keeps me thinking about it all the
time. I find myself diagnosing myself which I rather want to leave to
the therp. When my therp asks me questions about how I do I answer as
though I knew the answer by heart because I'm thinking about it as often
as to form phrases in my mind which I, when asked, merely repeat. Dunno
whether that's good.
I try to distract myself from thinking about depression and what it
means and all by reading. And when I can't concentrate on reading I go
to the cinema. Maybe that might be good for you, too? I mean trying to
leave it for some while if possible?

Good luck - gerriT

Hi!

mighty mouse schrieb:

I got almost zero sleep last night, and it wasn't because I was up all night
partying after the soccer. I slept too much over the weekend and I just
couldn't sleep at night when I needed to. Surprisingly I'm really not that
tired now. I really hope I'm able to get a decent nights sleep in a few
hours because I don't know how I'll manage after 2 virtually sleepless
nights.

I hope you'll sleep!

Though when I stay awake for two nights I actually don't feel too bad. I
rather feel drunk then. That's okay. And I won't get a hangover which I
find is fair.

My brain is still trying to digest what this new therp told me about

[...]

I don't know what I'm asking for, or why I'm going to bother posting this
ramble. Thanks to anyone who made it to the end.


Kylie

I would be as confused as you if I was in your situation I guess.

The two therps I've been to diagnosed me with depression. I'm now
searching for a pdoc but haven't got an appointment yet. Since the
therps said I've got a fu**ing (sorry) depression I'm reading all what I
find about the subject, finding symptoms on me and sometimes also on
others (my brother for example). I suppose I should better stop
gathering as much info as I can. It keeps me thinking about it all the
time. I find myself diagnosing myself which I rather want to leave to
the therp. When my therp asks me questions about how I do I answer as
though I knew the answer by heart because I'm thinking about it as often
as to form phrases in my mind which I, when asked, merely repeat. Dunno
whether that's good.
I try to distract myself from thinking about depression and what it
means and all by reading. And when I can't concentrate on reading I go
to the cinema. Maybe that might be good for you, too? I mean trying to
leave it for some while if possible?

Good luck - gerriT

On Tue, 13 Jun 2006 20:08:47 +1000, "mighty mouse"
<kye_99@NOSPAMyahoo.com> wrote:


Wow. You need to regroup. First of all, the sleep will come and even
2 straight nights without it, though stressful, are completely
bearable. And as far as your pdoc's diagnosis, it sounds like he
mentioned it casually, merely a possibility he is considering in your
case. That approach is careless and almost unethical.

I'd be researching the hell out of it too, obsessing as you are.
Clearly he did not properly describe the disorder or his basis for
this possibility.

Random quote from internet:
"Others believe that the term "borderline personality" has been so
misunderstood and misused that trying to refine it is pointless and
suggest instead simply scrapping the term."

It's very controversial and is described differently depending on the
expert. I think you've probably already ruled it out based on your
research, but hearing it from your pdoc has you terribly confused.

See another doctor for an independent assessment if he pushes it.

mighty mouse <kye_99@nospamyahoo.com> wrote:

I got almost zero sleep last night, and it wasn't because I was up all

partying after the soccer. I slept too much over the weekend and I just
couldn't sleep at night when I needed to.

That's why it's "Blue Monday" ... ppl sleep late weekends, can't
sleep Sunday night... and go to work sleep-deprived.

possibly having borderline personality disorder. I was ok at first, I

tired and didn't really think about it that much. Now, a week later,

totally freaked out by it and I've been reading all I can find about
symptoms, treatment and long term outcomes.

I really don't know if this fits me or not. Some aspects of it are

the mark but others really don't describe me at all. Or maybe they do

don't see it. I'm totally confused.

It's a new therapist. You have to sound each other out, see
if you suit each other. If this person keeps trying to make
you see symptoms you don't have, that's not good. If this person
doesn't have the confidence or expertise to treat you as diagnosed,
that's also not good. I have no idea if this is the case here.

It took me months to come to terms with having depression and anxiety

realise it was time for me to start taking meds for it. Now I may have

start that adjustment process again, only this time it's adjusting to an
illness with a worse stigma, worse prognosis and frankly, one that

the hell out of me.

I would be also. I don't much care for the "label" in that case.

I don't know what I'm asking for, or why I'm going to bother posting

ramble.

Because it's a Major New Development and you need to think about
it, and it doesn't hurt to think about it in a forum where ppl will

--
but the edge is still Out there. Or maybe it's In... HST (1967)
when i got to the edge , i built a deck % (2005)

That's why it's "Blue Monday" ... ppl sleep late weekends, can't
sleep Sunday night... and go to work sleep-deprived.

mighty mouse wrote:

I got almost zero sleep last night, and it wasn't because I was up all

partying after the soccer. I slept too much over the weekend and I just
couldn't sleep at night when I needed to. Surprisingly I'm really not

tired now. I really hope I'm able to get a decent nights sleep in a few
hours because I don't know how I'll manage after 2 virtually sleepless
nights.

I've done it after too much sleep. (I'm doing it right now, in fact.)
You'll get through it.

My brain is still trying to digest what this new therp told me about
possibly having borderline personality disorder. I was ok at first, I

tired and didn't really think about it that much. Now, a week later, I'm
totally freaked out by it and I've been reading all I can find about
symptoms, treatment and long term outcomes.

I really don't know if this fits me or not. Some aspects of it are right

the mark but others really don't describe me at all. Or maybe they do

don't see it. I'm totally confused.

It's only a possibility, not a diagnosis. Personally, I think therps are
often too quick to apply the BPD label on their clients. It could very
well be something else. A one-hour session isn't enough to make a solid
Axis II diagnosis IMVHO.

Just a thought: BPD and PTSD are close cousins in terms of their
symptoms. Look up the criteria for PTSD and complex PTSD and see if
either of those might not more closely define your condition.