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Sociology > Depression |
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"Flashfire" |
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04 Apr 2004 05:44:53 AM |
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What I have been doing |
Hi all,
You have not heard from me of late for a variety of reasons. Major amongst
them computer problems. I could not post there for a while. I dont know why.
I would write and post and the posts never showed up. I got so disillusioned
about it that I just gave up on the computer for a while. Then my in laws
visited. And usually I get along with them really well, but for some reason,
they just irritated the hell out of me. They were in my house for 3 weeks
and I was wishing them to hell after the first couple of days. And I dont
know why, I really love those people. But I was just so angry all the time.
So much so that my other half and I nearly split up the day we were supposed
to be having a really good day for her birthday. I went so far as to move
all my clothes into the spare room and vowed that it was over between us.
Thing is I love her so much and I knew deep inside I was acting like an
arse, but I just could not stop myself. I tried I really did. But the words
came out. I know I really hurt her and I hated myself for it. The good news
is, we patched it up. Her parents forgive me (at least I think so, they said
they had a great vacation, so I could not have spoiled it too much for
them) and life is back to normal. I hate to say it but I think I am getting
more and more reclusive. I hate having people in my house.
Next week my son's ex girlfriend and my grandson are arriving for two weeks.
I am looking forward to it, because I have only seen the little guy when he
was born and only one time since. He is 16 months old now. But by the same
token I am dreading it. I feel for her, she and my son have split up, he has
moved on, found a new girl and moved across the country to another city, he
is starting his life anew. She is falling all to pieces, even though she is
the one who broke up with him, because she felt he was not responsible
enough. She is a nice girl, I really hope she finds another man, someone who
will be the kind of man she feels she needs. I want so much to see my
grandson, but I dont know how it will be. I just hope my irritibility and
anger stay at bay. I don't even have a reason for it. Besides dysthymia. I
hate that I am like that.
Anyway, I hope all is well in your lives, for now I am ok. But who knows how
long that will last.
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| User: "Gayle" |
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| Title: Re: What I have been doing |
04 Apr 2004 07:44:49 AM |
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Flashfire wrote:
Hi all,
I've missed you! Hope the visit with your grandson and his mum goes well.
Gayle
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| User: "Jamal Chapultapec" |
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| Title: Re: What I have been doing |
04 Apr 2004 03:32:37 PM |
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I was hoping you had died.
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| User: "" |
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| Title: Re: What I have been doing |
04 Apr 2004 07:07:35 AM |
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On Sun, 4 Apr 2004 20:44:53 +1000, "Flashfire"
<flashfire@myswiftdsl.com.au> wrote:
<(((*> I just hope my irritibility and
<(((*> anger stay at bay. I don't even have a reason for it. Besides dysthymia.
When was the last time you had a full medical? It might be a good
idea to rule out any medical causes.
I'm glad you're going to spend some time with your grandson. Ice
cream cones, walks in the park, piggyback rides. Love.
Tara J. Ballance
Montreal, Canada
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| User: "wombn" |
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| Title: Re: What I have been doing |
04 Apr 2004 04:47:43 PM |
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On Sun, 4 Apr 2004 20:44:53 +1000, "Flashfire"
<flashfire@myswiftdsl.com.au> wrote:
Hi all,
You have not heard from me of late for a variety of reasons. Major amongst
them computer problems. I could not post there for a while. I dont know why.
I would write and post and the posts never showed up. I got so disillusioned
about it that I just gave up on the computer for a while. Then my in laws
visited. And usually I get along with them really well, but for some reason,
they just irritated the hell out of me. They were in my house for 3 weeks
THREE WEEKS?!?!?!? yikes.
and I was wishing them to hell after the first couple of days. And I dont
know why, I really love those people. But I was just so angry all the time.
hormones?
So much so that my other half and I nearly split up the day we were supposed
to be having a really good day for her birthday. I went so far as to move
all my clothes into the spare room and vowed that it was over between us.
Thing is I love her so much and I knew deep inside I was acting like an
arse, but I just could not stop myself. I tried I really did. But the words
came out. I know I really hurt her and I hated myself for it. The good news
is, we patched it up. Her parents forgive me (at least I think so, they said
they had a great vacation, so I could not have spoiled it too much for
them) and life is back to normal. I hate to say it but I think I am getting
more and more reclusive. I hate having people in my house.
Next week my son's ex girlfriend and my grandson are arriving for two weeks.
I am looking forward to it, because I have only seen the little guy when he
was born and only one time since. He is 16 months old now. But by the same
token I am dreading it. I feel for her, she and my son have split up, he has
moved on, found a new girl and moved across the country to another city, he
is starting his life anew. She is falling all to pieces, even though she is
the one who broke up with him, because she felt he was not responsible
enough. She is a nice girl, I really hope she finds another man, someone who
will be the kind of man she feels she needs. I want so much to see my
grandson, but I dont know how it will be. I just hope my irritibility and
anger stay at bay. I don't even have a reason for it. Besides dysthymia. I
hate that I am like that.
you could warn her, maybe?
Anyway, I hope all is well in your lives, for now I am ok. But who knows how
long that will last.
it will last.
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If laughter is the best medicine,
then kittens should be covered by our health insurance. :-)
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| User: "Don Exist" |
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| Title: Re: What I have been doing |
04 Apr 2004 07:57:40 AM |
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The same happened to me when I visited my parents, I was so mad for
some reason (probably bad memories) that was mad all the time... now
that I think, it might've been depression showing it up in the way of
anger.
Iknow how it feels, one knows one is a *****, but there's a force that
leads us to keep being like that eventhough we are aware of that.
The best
On Sun, 4 Apr 2004 20:44:53 +1000, "Flashfire"
<flashfire@myswiftdsl.com.au> wrote:
Hi all,
You have not heard from me of late for a variety of reasons. Major amongst
them computer problems. I could not post there for a while. I dont know why.
I would write and post and the posts never showed up. I got so disillusioned
about it that I just gave up on the computer for a while. Then my in laws
visited. And usually I get along with them really well, but for some reason,
they just irritated the hell out of me. They were in my house for 3 weeks
and I was wishing them to hell after the first couple of days. And I dont
know why, I really love those people. But I was just so angry all the time.
So much so that my other half and I nearly split up the day we were supposed
to be having a really good day for her birthday. I went so far as to move
all my clothes into the spare room and vowed that it was over between us.
Thing is I love her so much and I knew deep inside I was acting like an
arse, but I just could not stop myself. I tried I really did. But the words
came out. I know I really hurt her and I hated myself for it. The good news
is, we patched it up. Her parents forgive me (at least I think so, they said
they had a great vacation, so I could not have spoiled it too much for
them) and life is back to normal. I hate to say it but I think I am getting
more and more reclusive. I hate having people in my house.
Next week my son's ex girlfriend and my grandson are arriving for two weeks.
I am looking forward to it, because I have only seen the little guy when he
was born and only one time since. He is 16 months old now. But by the same
token I am dreading it. I feel for her, she and my son have split up, he has
moved on, found a new girl and moved across the country to another city, he
is starting his life anew. She is falling all to pieces, even though she is
the one who broke up with him, because she felt he was not responsible
enough. She is a nice girl, I really hope she finds another man, someone who
will be the kind of man she feels she needs. I want so much to see my
grandson, but I dont know how it will be. I just hope my irritibility and
anger stay at bay. I don't even have a reason for it. Besides dysthymia. I
hate that I am like that.
Anyway, I hope all is well in your lives, for now I am ok. But who knows how
long that will last.
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