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"lyssa" |
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29 Oct 2004 12:41:25 AM |
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when they were young... |
x-no-archive: yes
i knew.
i believed that love that enough.
i had answers then
the questions are harder now.
and there mostly aren't answers.
love isn't enough.
neither is effort or determination.
i hate that.
i want off
and there is no off
not for papa
not for me
i wish i could sit on the beach. a warm one. and believe in good once
again, even if only for a moment.
the stench of death
the fear and despair of failure
the humiliation of life
these are my reality and the reality of those i love the most.
there aren't answers.
and love isn't enough.
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| User: "=^.^=" |
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| Title: Re: when they were young... |
29 Oct 2004 01:49:52 AM |
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On Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:41:25 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
i wish i could sit on the beach. a warm one. and believe in good once=20
again, even if only for a moment.
would an immense sand dune do, for much longer?
the stench of death
the fear and despair of failure
the humiliation of life
these are my reality and the reality of those i love the most.
been there. three of us got away
there aren't answers.
and love isn't enough.
I can't name that what is needed...
but I know
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| User: "lyssa" |
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| Title: Re: when they were young... |
30 Oct 2004 06:14:42 PM |
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x-no-archive: yes
=^.^= wrote:
On Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:41:25 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
i wish i could sit on the beach. a warm one. and believe in good once
again, even if only for a moment.
would an immense sand dune do, for much longer?
i think the sun is the essential bit
the stench of death
the fear and despair of failure
the humiliation of life
these are my reality and the reality of those i love the most.
been there. three of us got away
i'm glad.
there aren't answers.
and love isn't enough.
I can't name that what is needed...
but I know
i suspect it isn't simple.
(even simple things generally aren't)
(sorry i'm so long replying :( )
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| User: "=^.^=" |
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| Title: Re: when they were young... |
30 Oct 2004 11:38:55 PM |
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On Sat, 30 Oct 2004 23:14:42 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
x-no-archive: yes
=3D^.^=3D wrote:
On Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:41:25 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
i wish i could sit on the beach. a warm one. and believe in good once=
=20
again, even if only for a moment.
=20
would an immense sand dune do, for much longer?
i think the sun is the essential bit
http://xserver.zapto.org/pix/somesun.jpg
well, sundown comes, animalz stay...
the sand holds the heat for a long time
and then there is JayDees' log, down @
Marias' Beach. immense, unburnable
log that came-in in a huge storm in `62
maybe best to bring some blankets
and an umberella, in either cass. you
can get really sunfried at either place
I never bothered, but others can get burnt-up=20
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the stench of death
the fear and despair of failure
the humiliation of life
these are my reality and the reality of those i love the most.
been there. three of us got away
i'm glad.
so were we...
I ignored the damage for a long time
now I have to take stinking pills...
but, I've found out how to get pills
that stink less and work better....
har!
=20
there aren't answers.
and love isn't enough.
=20
I can't name that what is needed...
but I know
i suspect it isn't simple.
(even simple things generally aren't)
awaawaww. it is simple.....
and complicated, at the same time
(sorry i'm so long replying :( )
rumbly <mmmmmm>
but, you did...
life, in general, screws with the time people have
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| User: "lyssa" |
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| Title: Re: when they were young... |
05 Nov 2004 11:53:34 PM |
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=^.^= wrote:
On Sat, 30 Oct 2004 23:14:42 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
x-no-archive: yes
=^.^= wrote:
On Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:41:25 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
i wish i could sit on the beach. a warm one. and believe in good once
again, even if only for a moment.
would an immense sand dune do, for much longer?
i think the sun is the essential bit
http://xserver.zapto.org/pix/somesun.jpg
sunsets are good, too...provided it's warm.
well, sundown comes, animalz stay...
:)
the sand holds the heat for a long time
and then there is JayDees' log, down @
Marias' Beach. immense, unburnable
log that came-in in a huge storm in `62
maybe best to bring some blankets
and an umberella, in either cass. you
can get really sunfried at either place
I never bothered, but others can get burnt-up
i'd be the first to get burned
<ayep>
hey, i'd live with it.
i hate hate hate this cold
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| User: "=^.^=" |
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| Title: Re: when they were young... |
06 Nov 2004 03:27:22 AM |
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On Sat, 06 Nov 2004 05:53:34 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
i think the sun is the essential bit
=20
http://xserver.zapto.org/pix/somesun.jpg
sunsets are good, too...provided it's warm.
oh, I can deal with sunsets provided I'm wrapped-up
in a cloaking device. usta tromp around in storms with
someone, in one. but for the most-part, I'll do the warm
besides, the cloaking device got chewed-up and the lady
came back from Arkansas/Tennesee all fucked up ...=20
exposure to the madness core of her anscestors, I'd guess
=20
well, sundown comes, animalz stay...
meyaaatt, even
I never bothered, but others can get burnt-up=20
i'd be the first to get burned
<ayep>
hey, i'd live with it.
i hate hate hate this cold
itz going down into the freeze-zone @ SeaWash now
three months and then green shoots will show up...
I'll likely go prowl-off to Marias' Beach during one of
the cold dry days...we gotta high sitting over the land
right now that means clear cold days. I'll knock my *****
out with some benzos so I can get out in it. ugh, Saturd
day. there will be more smelly animals out-and-about
oh, well. I can radiate diss-dain at them
gotta keep the diss dain radiators in operating order...
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| User: "Charles" |
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| Title: Re: when they were young... |
29 Oct 2004 12:48:39 AM |
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On Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:41:25 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
x-no-archive: yes
i knew.
i believed that love that enough.
i had answers then
the questions are harder now.
and there mostly aren't answers.
love isn't enough.
neither is effort or determination.
i hate that.
i want off
and there is no off
not for papa
not for me
i wish i could sit on the beach. a warm one. and believe in good once
again, even if only for a moment.
the stench of death
the fear and despair of failure
the humiliation of life
these are my reality and the reality of those i love the most.
there aren't answers.
and love isn't enough.
I remember when I had hope. if only I could do or say the right thing
all would be well.
--
- Charles
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-does not play well with others
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| User: "lyssa" |
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| Title: Re: when they were young... |
29 Oct 2004 12:53:12 AM |
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x-no-archive: yes
Charles wrote:
On Fri, 29 Oct 2004 05:41:25 GMT, lyssa <here@home.com> wrote:
x-no-archive: yes
i knew.
i believed that love that enough.
i had answers then
the questions are harder now.
and there mostly aren't answers.
love isn't enough.
neither is effort or determination.
i hate that.
i want off
and there is no off
not for papa
not for me
i wish i could sit on the beach. a warm one. and believe in good once
again, even if only for a moment.
the stench of death
the fear and despair of failure
the humiliation of life
these are my reality and the reality of those i love the most.
there aren't answers.
and love isn't enough.
I remember when I had hope. if only I could do or say the right thing
all would be well.
yes.
that.
{{{charles}}}
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