SPIEGEL ONLINE - July 28, 2006, 03:09 PM
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Shattered Peace
Watching Beirut Die
By Anthony Bourdain
We went to Beirut to film a TV show about the city's newly vibrant culinary
and cultural scene. Then the bombs started falling, and we could only stand
on the barricades of our hotel balcony and watch it all disappear -- again.
Beirut is trying to maintain normality despite frequent Israeli
sorties bombing parts of the city.
From where I'm sitting, poolside, I can see the airport burning -- the last
of the jet fuel cooking off like a dying can of sterno. There's a large,
black plume of smoke coming from the south of the city -- just over the
rise, where the most recent airstrikes have been targeting the Shiite
neighborhoods and what are, presumably, Hezbollah-associated structures. My
camera crew and I missed it the first time they hit the airport. Slept right
through it. Woke up in our snug hotel sheets to the news that we wouldn't be
making television in Beirut (not the show we came to do anyway), and that we
wouldn't be getting out of here anytime soon.
Any hopes of runway repair followed by a flight out disappeared two nights
ago, when we watched from the balcony of my hotel room as missiles, fired
from offshore, twinkled brightly for a few long seconds in the air, then
dropped in lazy parabolic arcs onto the fuel tanks.
We knew by that time what was happening in the south: Hezbollah rocketing
Israel, the Israeli army mobilizing along -- and even crossing -- the
border, firing artillery, reserves being called up. Frightened visitors from
other Gulf states and the Lebanese -- including our local fixer -- had
headed for Syria, but planes had been hitting that route out repeatedly,
making the already unattractive option of camera-bearing Americans crossing
into that unwelcoming country even less attractive. An exit by sea was out
of the question in light of a total naval blockade. We were stuck. The other
American guests -- at first secure in their "This doesn't concern us" and
"They won't target us" and "We're just waiting for word" mode, were now
visibly worried.
Everything had begun so beautifully. Our fixer, Lena, was bursting with
enthusiasm when she met us at the airport. After months of preproduction,
finally we were here! Finally, the American television crew had arrived --
to show the world how beautiful her country was, how lovingly restored, how
hip and forward thinking in the years since the bloody civil war. On the
first day of filming, we'd had a sensational early lunch of hummus, kibbe,
stewed lamb and yogurt at Le Chef, a local, family-style joint in a charming
neighborhood. The customers at the tables around us in the tiny,
worn-looking dining area chattered away in Arabic, French and English.
Stomachs full, my crew and I headed over to Martyr's Square and the Rafik
Hariri memorial; a few blocks away, our fixer and friends pointing out old
scars and new construction, trying to explain how much Beirut and Lebanon
had changed since the man's death in 2005. They spoke effusively of the
calm, the peace, the relative tolerance that had followed the galvanizing
effects of Hariri's assassination. Each smiled and pointed at the giant
photographic mural of the million-person demonstration that had led to
Syria's withdrawal from their country; Ali, our unofficial tough-guy escort,
pointed at a tiny dot among the hundreds of thousands in the photo and
joked, "That's me!"
They were so proud of how far they'd come, how much they'd survived, how
different and sophisticated Beirut was now. They spoke of all the things
they had to show us, the people we had to meet. Significantly, the word
"Syria" was still spoken in slightly hushed tones. Speaking too long, too
loud or too harshly of their former occupier, it was suggested, could still
get you killed. (An outcome not without precedent.) We walked along the road
leading to a cordoned-off area by the St. George Hotel, where Bardot, Monroe
and Kim Philby had once played -- back when Beirut was called the "Paris of
the Orient" without a hint of irony. The buildings in the area were still in
ruins, a roof torn off, the old hotel -- under construction when the
targeted blast that killed Hariri occurred -- still empty. The Phoenician,
across the street, which had also been destroyed, had recently been
completely rebuilt. A modern hotel like any other, but they were proud of
that too. Because, like Beirut, it was still there. It was back.
Then, in the blink of an eye, everything went sideways: Relaxed smiles froze
and disappeared. Suddenly, there was the sound of automatic weapons firing
randomly in the air from a nearby neighborhood. And fireworks. Then cars --
a few of them -- teenage kids, women and adults, some leaning out the
windows and waving Hezbollah flags and flashing the "V" for victory sign,
celebrating what we were told, after a few quick cellphone calls, was the
grabbing of two Israeli soldiers. Our fixer, a Sunni; Ali, a Shiite; and
"Marwan," a Christian, who'd just minutes ago been pointing proudly at the
mural -- all three looked down in embarrassment, a look of sorrow, shame and
then resignation on their faces. Someone muttered "assholes" bitterly. They
knew -- right away -- what was going to happen next.
Not that that stopped the party -- initially anyway. Beirutis like to tell
you (true or not) that they partied right through the civil war. That it
wasn't "cool" to seek shelter during an airstrike. That we "shouldn't worry.
All the nightclubs have their own generators." That night, we continued to
shoot (and drink heavily) at the opening party for the newly relocated Sky
Bar, a rooftop nightclub with a view of the Mediterranean. Moneyed
Beirutis -- all of them, it seemed, young, sexy and ridiculously
beautiful -- drank vodka and Red Bull, and swayed (if not exactly danced)
while Israeli jets flew menacingly low overhead. Were it not for the
warplanes, it could have been Los Angeles or South Beach, Fla. The crowd was
English speaking -- with the kind of West Coast, television accents you hear
on sitcoms. Many were Lebanese Americans, returned to the country of their
parents, or émigrés to America and Britain who'd left during the civil war
and only just come back. I met and talked with Ramsay Short, the young
editor of the newly launched Time Out Beirut, and he bragged effusively
about their recent "Sex Issue," its cover depicting a woman's bare legs,
panties bunched around the ankles. The issue -- provocative, to say the
least, in a largely Muslim country -- had sailed through without censorship
or even major complaint. Ramsay was happy about that. As he was happy that
his town had rated its own edition of the snarky, urbane city guide. "There
are only 15 cities in the world with a Time Out," he told me happily, "and
Beirut is now one of them!" He did not look up at the planes. Later, we hit
Barbar, a late-night post-nightclub shawarma joint where his mood became
more pensive. Even then, before the first airstrikes, I think he too knew
what was coming.
The sun sets over Beirut.
Any pretense that the "party never stops in Beirut" was gone by the next
morning when the airport was hit with what would be the first of many
strikes. A naval blockade precluded any escape by boat. For those who could,
the road to Damascus was the only option -- and Lena, and Ali, urged us to
take it. But the network and our production company were reluctant to sign
off on what -- even then -- seemed a dodgy undertaking.
We found ourselves in my hotel room, watching the airport get hit again: Me,
camera people Tracey, Todd and Jerry, field producer Diane, our fixer -- and
Ali. Our fixer, at the urging of her father in Syria, tearfully agreed to
join him there. Our driver, an hour earlier waiting outside, gassed up and
ready to go, disappeared. Ali alone remained. Refused to leave us. "I am
with you," he said. But after observing numerous calls to and from his
family in South Beirut, and seeing the way he was working the prayer beads
between his fingers, the sword tattoo on his arm flexing and slackening
nervously, we insisted he join them. (We later heard his house was
flattened.) We were left to ourselves, emptying my mini-bar and trying to
keep a stiff upper lip, telling stupid jokes, while the orange glow from the
airport flared and subsided and finally died.
After a series of very worried calls from the States, we are told to "stand
by for 'the Cleaner,'" a "security expert," "like the Harvey Keitel guy in
'Pulp Fiction,'" the man who will "get us out," take us to a "safe house," a
"secure location," "exfiltrate us" to safety. We are told to be packed, to
be ready. To expect a call from "Mr. Wolfe."
At 3 a.m. I get the call. Shortly after, I meet the man in the lobby. I'd
been expecting an ex-Green Beret -- somebody with a thick neck, steel grey
eyes, a tattoo saying "He Who Dares Wins," an aged Dolph Lundgren type, all
business and mysterious past. We're expecting a midnight drive in a flatbed
truck, maybe hidden under a tarp. Bribes at the border. A next-day
rendezvous with a blacked-out helicopter. The man I meet is a short,
nebbishy type -- he looks like someone you'd meet at an office supply
convention. He has two cars out front -- his, and another driven by a woman
associate. We load out quickly and race through empty streets, blowing
through traffic lights -- no directionals, last-minute turns -- to the other
side of town, to Le Royale, a mammoth hotel on a hill in the Christian
section, fairly close to the American embassy. This, as it turns out, will
be our home for the next week.
Nearly a week later, they've brought in a polka band to play in the dining
room of the "Mexican"-themed restaurant at Le Royale. Outside, on the pool
deck, though the bar is unattended, they keep the radio cranked up to drown
out the sounds of bombing -- so as not to scare the kiddies. We wake up to
molar-vibrating percussions and go to sleep to distant thunder. Afternoons,
we watch as Beirut is dismantled. Bit by bit. First the sound of unseen jets
flying overhead. Then silence. Then a "Boom!" Then a distant plume of smoke.
Black, brown, white ... the whole city south of us slowly growing more
indistinct in the midday light under a constant, smoglike haze.
It's called "Kwik-Clot," Mr. Wolfe tells us. And in case of arterial
bleeding, it's essential gear. He's thinking of issuing us some -- in case
one of us should catch a bullet or shrapnel to the femoral artery. Mr. Wolfe
has lived in Fucked-Up Country One and done work in Fucked-Up Countries Two
and Three. He lives in the Most Legendarily Fucked-Up area of Lebanon --
where they have a Hezbollah gift shop, for chrissakes. So we take him
seriously -- though this is not the kind of morale-boosting patter we want
to hear. "Just pour in wound!" he tells us cheerily. It's not, however, that
harsh a segue from the "Know Your Exits" lecture, in which we are advised to
"casually" explore all the nooks and crannies and "avenues of egress" from
all points in the hotel.
Or the "Vary Your Routines" briefing, where we are instructed to use a
different elevator or service stairway when going to breakfast or meetings
or heading to the pool. We are to eat, drink, swim at unpredictable times as
we wait for news. "It takes three days of planning and surveillance to set
up a kidnapping" says Mr. Wolfe, lowering his voice suddenly when a lone
gentleman in casual clothes enters our area of the balcony and sits at a
nearby table. "Amateur," says Mr. Wolfe. "Look at how he's got his face
pointed straight out at sea, his ear cocked in our direction. Clumsy.
Obvious." Sure enough, the guy does seem suddenly suspicious, the way he
moves closer to snap a few panoramic vistas with his cellphone camera.
"Probably ISF," sneers Mr. Wolfe. "Local boys." Mr. Wolfe's amusement -- and
pleasure in scaring the living ***** out of us -- rises in direct proportion
to our paranoia. A room has been reserved for armed security -- should we
need it, he assures us. And our own rooms moved around so as to be close to
each other -- with one of them designated as a meeting point should we have
to assemble at short notice. "We don't want to be meeting in the lobby with
everybody else." We've practiced running down and through a rabbit warren of
service exits, stairwells and passageways to Mr. Wolf's "vehicles" in a
sub-level of the parking lot. A security guard has been taken care of so as
to lift the gate of a back entrance should circumstances require our fleeing
through a back way. We are to stay close together -- and be on time for
meetings and briefings. There's even a pop quiz: Mr. Wolfe hands out
photographs of various design features and landmarks in the hotel and
challenges us to tell him where, exactly, those locations are, and how we
might exit from each. When Mr. Wolfe is not within shouting distance, his
female associate keeps a close eye on us -- even when we're by the pool.
And we're by the pool a lot. We sit. We play cards. We tell the same *****
jokes -- halfheartedly, for sure. But by now, that's all that keeps us from
going crazy or bursting into tears. Our irregular "intel" (Mr. Wolfe's
favorite word) consists of printed analysis from a faraway corporate
security company (useless speculation), BBC News (pretty good), local TV
(excellent -- though in Arabic), the Hizballah Channel (scary), Sky News
(shockingly up-to-date and thorough), Some Guy From the Pool (almost always
on target. He accurately predicts locations and times of airstrikes and
seems to know which countries' citizens are getting out and when),
Somebody's Mom Back in the States (excellent source), and Mr. Wolfe's
printouts from the AOL News Web site (always discouraging). We've heard the
Israeli prime minister talk of knocking back Lebanon 20 years. And we
believe him. We hear of pleasure boats filled with European nationals being
turned back by Israeli ships. We call the embassy day after day and get no
response. Nothing. Officially -- after days of war -- the State Department
advice is to visit its Web site. Which contains nothing of use.
We watch the city we'd barely begun to know -- and yet already started to
love -- destroyed, seemingly (from where we're sitting) without sense or
reason. We watch Blackhawk helicopters fly in and out of the embassy and
hear panicked rumors that they're evacuating the ambassador (false) and
"non-essential personnel" (true, I believe). Around the pool, the
increasingly frustrated, mostly Lebanese Americans exchange rumors and
information gleaned from never-ending cellphone conversations with we don't
know who: relatives in the south, friends back in America, people who've
already made it out. Friends who've spoken to their congressman. Guys who
work at CNN. The list goes on. The news maddening, incomplete, incorrect --
alternately hopeful, terrifying and dismaying.
The hotel empties and fills and empties again. We hear:
"The Italians got out!"
"The fucking Romanians got out!"
"The French are gone!"
What is clear -- as far as we're concerned -- from all sources is that there
is no official, announced plan. No real advice, or information, or public
exit strategy or timetable. The news clip of President Bush, chawing
open-mouthed on a buttered roll, then grabbing at another while Tony Blair
tries to get him to focus on Lebanon -- plays over and over on the TV,
crushing our spirits and dampening all hope with every glassy-eyed mouthful.
He seems intent on enjoying his food; Lebanon a tiny, annoying blip on an
otherwise blank screen. I can't tell you how depressing that innocuous bit
of footage is to watch. That one, innocent, momentary preoccupation with a
roll has a devastating effect on us that is out of all proportion. We're
looking for signs. And this, sadly, is all we have.
And every day we hear worse. Cellphone towers, power stations, land lines
are being targeted, says Mr. Wolfe. And we're frankly terrified of the
seemingly imminent moment when we can no longer stay in touch with the
outside world, make or receive calls to the States -- or more important, be
notified by the embassy (should that ever happen). They've run out of bread
and food in downtown stores.
And yet, at the hotel, still safe and fed and liquored up in Bizarro World,
we sit by the pool and watch the war. And wait, impotently -- shamefacedly.
As the hotel empties again -- and only a few of us are left. Expectations
fade and then die. Just bitterness and a sense of disgust remain. What to
expect anymore? One hopes only for the little things: that they'll fire up
the pizza oven today. That they'll open the bar early. That we might just
maybe get an English language newspaper or magazine -- or even a French one.
A few miles away, of course, hopes are similarly downscaled -- yet far, far
more urgent:
Will there be bread?
Will there be water?
Will the power come back on?
Is my family OK?
Will I die today?
They've hit the little lighthouse by the port. While on one hand insisting
that the Lebanese government do "something" about Hezbollah, they've shelled
an army base, the main bridges and roads. The last roads out to Syria, says
Some Guy by the Pool. An end or a pause is too much to hope for. Of that we
are certain. And certainty -- however terrible the truth -- is something we
cling to, an all too rare commodity. It's uncertainty that's the enemy, the
thing we know will make us all crazy.
In the end we are among the lucky ones. The privileged, the fortunate, the
relatively untouched. Unlike the Lebanese Americans who make it out, we
don't leave homes and loved ones behind, we will get out and return to
business as usual. To unbroken homes, intact families, friends and jobs.
After a hideously disorganized cluster ***** at the eventual "assembly
point" -- a barely under control mob scene of fainting old people, crying
babies, desperate families waving pink and white slips of paper, trying to
get the attention of a few understaffed, underprepared and seemingly annoyed
embassy personnel in baseball caps and casual clothes -- we are put in the
charge of the sailors and Marines of the USS Nashville who've hauled *****
from Jordan on short notice to undertake a mission for which they are
unrehearsed and inexperienced. Yet they perform brilliantly. The moment we
pass through the last checkpoint into their control, all are treated with a
kindness and humanity we can scarcely believe. Squared away, efficient,
organized and caringly sensitive, the Marines break the crowd into sensibly
spaced groups, give them shade and water, lead them single file to an
open-ended landing craft at the water's edge. They carry babies, children,
heat-stroke victims, luggage. They are soft-spoken, casually friendly. They
give out treats and fruit and water. They reassure us with their ease and
professionalism.
On the flight deck of the USS Nashville they've set up a refugee camp. I
wake up on my folding cot and look around. With every group of traumatized
evacuees -- with every family, every group of children, there's a Marine or
two, chatting, exchanging stories, listening. They open their ship to us.
They look so young. All of them. None looks over 17. "Where you from?" one
asks me. I say, "New York" -- and he tells me, "I ain't ever been there. I'd
like to." His friends agree. They've never seen New York either. The mess
serves tuna noodle casserole and mac and cheese and corn dogs. A sailor or
Marine in a bright green dragon suit entertains children. We are kept
informed. We are reassured. We are spoken to like adults. On the smoking
deck, a Marine shows off a Reuter's cover photo -- taken only a few hours
earlier -- of himself, nuzzling two babies as he carries them through the
surf to the landing craft. His buddies are razzing him, busting his balls
for how intolerably big-headed he's going to be -- now that he's "famous."
He looks at the picture and says, "You don't know what it felt like, man."
His eyes well up.
The last group from the beach is unloaded from the landing craft into the
belly of the Nashville, and we're off to Cyprus. Two battleships --
including the USS Cole escorting us. A Lebanon I never got to know, a Beirut
I didn't get to show the world disappears slowly over the horizon -- a
beautiful dream turned nightmare. It's not what I saw happen in Beirut that
I feel like talking about, though that's what I'm doing, isn't it? It's not
about what happened to me that remains an unfinished show, a not fully
fleshed out story, or even a particularly interesting one. It feels shameful
even writing this. It's the story I didn't get to tell. The Beirut I saw for
two short days. The possibilities. The hope. Now only a dream.
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